Brother :)

My friend just sent me a message and asked me the issue that he/she heard about my plan to leave BLIA YAD because for starting my new life overseas..
To be honest i found it a little funny and pissed off in the beginning, but now i feel so thankful and happy for having trust by people :)

This friend mad and scold me about not being selfish , she asked me about how can i let go easily BLIA YAD who i had been living with for 8 years ? he/she even told me to stop have my dream to study overseas because it won't guarantee me can be success. :)
I can't believe there will be someone who can said this horrible things to someone who need encouragement right now,
but i am no longer have any anger for he/she , what i can do is only smiling. When i heard about this thing it made me want to go even more.
It is sad to have people who judge you bad because of something that you need to do for living.
but if i rethink, i should be grateful to live as person who can be depended by people and this is a reflection of how pure my friend love BLIA YAD :)

This what i called " miss understanding " , sometimes we want to care but unintentionally hurt people feeling and of course we can't hate other and turn it into grudge forever because of this common mistake :)

This person told me that BLIA YAD needs me and i should help when they need a help.
At that moment, i though about what help they need from me? What guidance should i give?.

We are not living and wasting time to face a same problem, or mistake. all we need to have as human being is " Meeting and have a better Understanding", and the last thing is " Change "
this is the basic method that i always revealed out in every problem that i found, but it seems the hardest things to do because people tend to have strong self protection and ego.
There will be a problem when an organization stop listening and accept change.

I will go if i had to go, i will stay if i really need to stay. This Heart always know what is the best for everyone and myself, i had done what i can do for 8 years, and i had fulfilled all my promises to Buddha. I had done my best, and take my responsibility seriously but of course people always ask more and more , and good is never enough. Maybe some people will think i am such an arrogant person, but i believe if other people understand clearly about myself who always do what my heart told me to do, they will think differently. I believe what i had been trough and felt are also had been experienced by other people when they want to do something bigger and give more. Sometimes i know people have the answer inside their heart, but they just afraid to dig it up :)


But i won't stay because of other people depends on me instead of depend on their own selves. There will be a problem when people don't have clear dream and afraid to make a change. BLIA YAD is a great organization, although it is not perfect and a lot of weakness, but they have strength to learn and have unlimited skill to overcome mistake and perfect each other.
although sometimes they look and sound foolish and hard to be understand about what they real intention, they act like crazy and struggle to find a real way to regenerated Buddhism and found a real dream, sometimes also unintentionally caused wrong perception in other people.

In my life i never met this kind of organization who make so much foolish things and create benefit for other people in the same time.
Sometimes they try hard to give other people happiness but without realizing it they lost their own happiness. How can we met this kind of people who dare to sacrifice?
Maybe people are going to said " How stupid those person who want to give happiness, but they don't feel happy" but the funny things is although sometimes they are stress, but they never stop or give up. In their mind give people happiness is a must. What will you think if in this world there are 80 percent people who dare to sacrifice for other people's happiness?
Have you ever met a person who care so much about other people satisfaction than self? although so many things sound mistake, but they have a clear intention to find a better way to understand Dharma, they believe can be wiser someday and never fall in a same hole in the future, they have very bright future :)

That's why i think this organization is the most unperfect and perfect thing that i ever met .

they don't need me actually, what they need is an experience, change perception, adaptation , listening , accept weakness, don't waste too much energy in a wrong activity, appreciation, be universal, open heart, open minded, and more understanding about real Life, so we can spread Buddhism without boundaries and limitation.


In BLIA YAD i learned how to accept things that is not perfect as something which have HOPE.
It taught me to live happily in this messy world, and it teaches me that we can't die no matter we do mistake because we can directly get up and fix it up. We won't die because of it.


BLIA YAD doesn't need a smart people , as long they always dare to accept new things, and willing to guide so BLIA YAD will always live in this Humanistic life...


Of course BLIA YAD will break if they ask more from people but ignore to guide people with better way, ask for understanding but refuse to understand life, and the most important thing is losing their track for their real Dream, which give people Hope and Happiness.

About my study overseas, i believe BLIA YAD will understand about what is the best for me and for themselves. There will be a time when everything need a change. As long BLIA YAD always open the door and welcome a nomad ( perantau ) like me to home, BLIA YAD and myself will never feel missing or losing .



Always love and Stay strong

Rong Lee