helo Everybody--
long time no see..huh?
haha

today i like to share with you what i feel..
let me describe it to you..this feeling is kind of.. warm inside you`...day dreaming..make you smile..
and sometimes make you said to your self..aaa I miss it..
it also encourage you to live better and feel proud..to face the future..


last 3 days..i have nothing to do and i just playing facebook..and listen to Lee Hom's Song..
     
         "Chai Mi You Yan Jian Chu Cha" 

Listen to this song can make you think about your past memory.. and how far we had changed from a kiddos  to adult..maybe we change better or maybe worse..
i like this song.. maybe because of this song..it affect me to find them in Facebook..

can you imagine it.. almost everyday i play facebook..but only this time i feel i use it goodly..

that time you know because have nothing to do in face book..feeling wasting time by looking at random picture and look all complain in shout out..
and suddenly something pump out from my mind
" hey Why I never think to find my Very Childhood's Best Friend Here?

and without hesitating i search my old friend's name..
"I found them!!!"  i feel like back to my old House!!
  i add them!

aa this is the first time i feel so Happy playing Facebook..and feel thanks!

i was looking at their picture one by one..  
                             " are they living well ? "
  this is the first question appears in my mind..  you know it always pain inside to found  old friends or maybe someone who we know is suppose to be good turned become a Drug...criminal , bad attitude..and Messy...

and i wish this never happen to all my friends.. you know because it feels like you don't know how to encourage him to be happy..after long time no talk about each other..

But i am glad everybody looks Happy..


aa i miss them all.. since i was small i always play with them..
football with a shoes as a Goal ( gawang )..hide and seek at alleyway 
bleeding feet.. scary Aunty and grandma.. bicycle.. Ice Cream ( Walls ) , Kue-kue ( kind of snack in Medan) , Internet ( Star craft, Counter Strike )

yeah counter strike..that is the last favorite game for me..start that time..around year of 2001 ..
i was moved to new house..where i live today..
i am still remember the day where all things had moved out to a new house..me and my dad for the last time went to old house there to pick up small things..
all is empty...
i was looking around..the  place where i watched a television, where i cooked Instant noodle
( Indomie , Michiyo ), where i took a bath , where i grow up to taking bath myself,
Green ceramics.. enter my Parents room..( oh no.. i still remember all the picture..) yeah i remember it because i often dreaming back to that home during i sleep..
i miss it..

i miss that small home..sometimes when i passed i look at that house already being renovated full of ceramics..
but for me that old house is prettier before got renovated..

that day is the day where i lost contact with all my old friends...
my life is change after i moved here..
Sunday playing Foot ball, hide and seek.. change become going to Mall..
slowly going to Temple.. and meet with BLIA YAD ..becoming committee and President..

and i am starting busy here.. i have something to focus right now..and i feel different..

i admit it..i forgot all of my old's friend that time..( i think I'm such a bad person )
actually our house is easy to reach each other..
but during that time..i am still lack of experience to push myself contact with them...

until just know..i chat with one of my old friends " Jacky Ongko "..and talk about when i moved ..
he said they all want to find me.. but they don't know where i live..

that time surely i feel stupid.. " i wonder why i didn't tell them detaily where i live..before i leave?"
actually our home is damn near..
if only that time i was mature enough..

to be honest..i feel sorry and damn regret because of that..although i know kid is born to be innocent..


But this all reminds me how is our heart and mind change from time to time....and we all need to remind it again...especially the sincere on.. so we can daily keep reminding our self that we live today because we have a beautiful dream since we are small..and prevent us to be controlled by life..but we control the changes

During we are small.. all we want is Happy..
Dream to be Superman to save the world..

although it sounds nonsense..but for me it's beautiful..
because when kid want to say what he want to be in the future.. we can look at he/she eyes describe a real gut to be grow up ..

but sometimes when we are mature enough..more aging more afraid of everything..
make a lot of unnecessary decision and consideration to move forward..it surely make self pain..


this recently i feel like Grandpa... keep day dreaming about my past child hood story..haha


in my theory..
if we want to be proud during our old time..We should start to  write a good story today.. ^^

people said it easy to say than do..
For me.. it is more easy to do than Dream..
If we really dream about it..we surely automatically do it without being asked..



i miss everything about my child hood... sure..if only i have Time machine..i like to back to that time and looking at myself from the corner..and ask that innocent Kid called " Yong Yong " to take care of them well and give a detail new house address to them..
and i don't forget to bring my camera to take that kid's picture..because right now.. i have none of picture at that moment -- haha

i just pray from my heart everybody is doing well..keep walking in a good path..
and someday we are going to meet again in a good way..


Stay Strong..
Rong Lee