Today i watched some weird and confusing movie..but when i try to catch the meaning it turns entertaining...
the movie called " Magnolia " 

see..even the title is hard to understand haha

actually at the first time i don't understand exactly what the movie tells about..until the ending i actually still do not understand exactly what is the story..
in the beginning i was almost turn it to another channel..till i found interesting and good actor inside like an example Tom Cruise, Julianne More, William H Macy..and it make me curious..

as i see..this movie have a lot of desperate people inside..it showed us the life of Desperate people..from the problem that bump into his life..and fatal mistake that they ever do and make them hard to forget..

Policeman who always being laughed, get no respect from other.. feel as a useless policeman
Husband who cheat her wife and daughter and life with burden of wrong feeling..
kid who hate everybody because he is smart and everybody treat him like a doll..
Daughter who had been molested by her father..fall into drug
Man who hate his father because his father left his mother..
and so on..

for a minute a bunch of people showing their complicated story and their desperate emotion for you to watch..and all of them hide their secret to other people..

at the moment i can feel my self jump into the story..i can suddenly feel how hard is life out there for everybody who ever did a mistake and get a problem till hard to stand up..a people who burden a sad feeling and grudge in his whole life..
bring them nut..and act desperate..people starting think you weird..
and far away from you..

i don't know why i can sat on the couch ,keep watching that complicated movie.
Why this guy is crying...
Why the Tom Cruise mad during his seminar and bring topic " How to give a fake care to people " and the audience is happy..?

until in one scene some song appears and it touched my heart..
when the Subject turning desperate..and at the same time they sing the lyric with their messy condition..
You know..
when the song starting to play i feel all feeling is coming out..
at the moment i said to myself..i am going to find this song in internet later...

http://www.4shared.com/audio/IkVRpfdt/Aimee_Mann_-_Wise_Up.htm
(you can download it if you want )

The Lyric said about..

right now... i am damn falling in love with this song..

in the last story.some weird scene is coming out..when Frog is raining from the sky..
hit every house, car...
and then all the subject turning better...

can you imagine..when the situation is starting climax..suddenly frogs falls like a rain?
and at that time..all of them becoming good...
they take out all their burden..and try to change everything..
like having a new life..

actually i am still do not understand what is the movie tells about.. maybe for people who ever watch that movie will surely know i understand badly about the movie..
yeah that is me.. sometimes i have my own story inside my head..

but i can said that raining frogs describe the moment where the day starting to turn better...
and ask them to stop doing worse..

the police man said " sometimes someone need to be forgive, sometimes someone need to be in jail "
i wonder when that policeman who always being called stupid can said that wise word..
yeah that is right..the hardest things to do is to forgive people..
to let go the feeling of being hurt,,

at the conclusion i can say that sometimes we need to forgive the wrong in the past...and give a chance to live  better...

today i wrote this blog for people out there..who ever do a big mistake..
who have a bad moment right now..
who have a bad past story..
who have a hard life now..

sometimes we don't know what to do to fix everything...
we don't know how to get up again..
we don't know how to make up the broken relationship..
even we don't know how to death and how to life...

dare to say to ourselves..
someday even we have no leg and no hand..
we shouldn't say give up to live better...

in facebook one my friend said.. 

"The saddest things in life are to remember the happiest moments of the past which seems unlikely to happen again in lifetime!!!"

yeah i like to say..i am agree with her..because i ever felt this way..and i think everybody do..
all we can do is to believe that everybody will be a happy ending.. by staying good..
that;s all people can do..believe in something good to stand up..




someday we sure think there is a cure by having one drink..
that shrink us to underground, and living down..
but this life is not going to stop to hurt you..


like the song said about..

                                          everything is not going to stop until we wise up...


Love Me...
Rong Lee