hey diary..
this few days my head is full with the next generation of BLIA YAD Indonesia  
( New committees of 2011- 2013)

at Sunday,10 October 2010..BLIA YAD Indonesia do interview for the applicant who offer to become a Committee..
and i am the one of the Interviewer from five interviewer..
a whole day we stay at temple..try hard to interview and understand all the applicant
23 applicants need to be interview in 6 hours..without any break..

and all is finished at 18.30.. this head feels like want to explode ..haha
During the interview..
all the question that rings in my mind is just this one " Can I trust this person to protect BLIA YAD ? "
in one case i like to give people chance..in one case i am afraid i will choose a wrong person.. which will disturb BLIA YAD's Harmonize..
you know..because we don't know..do people will change good or worse.. do people want to learn or not.. do people will appreciate this chance or not..do people will stand strongly to he/she decision?

i know i am worry too much..
because this is the 2nd times we do interview for applicant of Committee..
and the first time we need to hand all over such a big responsible to youth who younger than us..

a lot of mind such as " can they do this? "
" Do they understand what is the responsible that they choose ? "

because there are two kind of person in this situation:

To be honest...the result of the interview this time is 80 % is kind of person in number one..and you know..of course in interview people will prevent to be rejected so all sure will answer positively..
that means which i worried a lot..

where they join because factor of  
Friends, fame, status..
which someday they can found out impermanent, people can change and then  break the promise..and destroy all of their belief for 
"why actually i stand here?"
"What is the Reason i come here?"


This morning i think about the day when i being asked become a committee in BLIA YAD..
actually they don't have any interview...and kind of decision that didn't give you a chance to say no..
it Surprise you and make you shocked...

i remembered that time i just a new members who being active and Fun for just a several month..
after join event " Summer Camp "
and for a several days being invited to the temple..without know any reason..why suddenly ask me to come?

i sit there and with some members..and the situation quite serious..
and suddenly someone said ( i forgot the person ) 

"  tonight we invited you guys because we like to ask all people here to become a Committee "

at that time i just " What? " and shacked like Hell

kind of " Oh No...what should i do?? "

in one case i feel like to try because i love BLIA YAD and feel happy to be with after join members..
and who knows i stand until today..

i am still remember how simple i am...
when becoming committee after a few days..without hesitating i wrote some letter to the President  
" Chandra Salim "
i write a lot of solution..critic to build BLIA YAD Indonesia..
and i know that time He thought that i deliver a LOVE LETTER  for him hahahaha 

this year also i have some members who act like me actually..
he quietly send a message give comment, critic, solution..
but i know after i try to know him..there are still a lot difference between me and him..
especially the personality..

i know myself well.. i am kind of person that i believe born to be a good heart person..
where i can become the best assets if i believe in something good..a person who dare to sacrifice for everything that precious ..even to give my Life..
since i was small i realize that i like to protect other people.. 
( I have no meaning to be arrogant and act Monastic.. )

but kind a person like me..if don't have a heart to Protect other..but only heart to protect self greed..  I will turn become Devil and nightmare for everyone which give high risk for this kind of Organization.. and break the One Heart One Dream..

the problem is can we trust other people will do better than us?
i wish this time all of them are special than before..


after remind this story this morning..suddenly i realized..

I am just to worry.. as a father to his son..
right now i understand why Old people always hard to trust directly to people who beginner and younger...
Haha

yeah i believe this is also because of bad experience that always haunted us..that's why we become extremely protective hoho

i think i should trust them...because long time ago, i am also hate if elder didn't trust me...
i wish i don't want to become that kind of " Elder" right now but always support for them to change better..haha


i don't want to repeat a same mistake..
and make everybody feel afraid of doing mistake..

Good Luck for everybody who will got the chance later..
i try my best..and wish you all the best...


Stay Strong and Love Me...

Rong Lee..