Hai!
We met again :)
it seems that i am going to stick with you more often because i need to start studying how to do correct writing in academic. You know about my personalities right? a person who have no rule and always do everything with own style, just like my english writing right now. Writing a whole things without paid attention to grammar and spelling as long people understand that will be alright . LOL
And know i need to obey for every rule in order to get good score for my IELTS exam later, haha Sometimes in order to understand the world and obtain freedom, we need to adapt with the situation instead of asking people to adapt with us :)

Brother, tonight i realized something about " Gratitude  and Repay " after I read some sentences in Mater Hsing Yun 's Book, it said "


Master Hsing Yun's views about the love between parents and children , when the parents are young and helpful, the sons and daughters are going to fight to get her attention like the BASKET BALL , after a half old the sons and daughters will throw from each other and toying like VOLLEY BALL , and after parents are old and incapable, the daughter's and son began kicking them like SOCCER BALL.

I think that is right, because i unintentionally do this kind of things without realizing it, especially when i found my parents or maybe teacher, if they starting can't give any better solution or understanding, i will stop to do cooperation further. And now I feel i just being a Jerk .

As a person, if we want to be happy, the first thing we need to learn is know how to appreciate and repay people kindness, maybe there are a person who stubborn and won't listen to you, that will be alright as long we know how to yield and don't give up to give support and better way to repay all the kindness/teaching that we got.

Tonight i want to send my gratitude with everyone who had guide me and teach me about Life..
and I love and care with them like my own life, I wish all of us can learn how to be Wiser and Stronger to make a right understanding about life and change life to be a better place :)

I believe People will change someday :) ,know how to forgive is the most powerful strength to make life better.

Okay, i need to go to bed earlier because of the intensive class for my IELTS, which held from Monday to Friday from 09.00 to 13.30. Everytime when i didn't get enough sleep, it will affect my concentration and ruin my breakfast schedule.
Everyday at noon i will suffer hunger in the class because they didn't prepare you enough time and food eat inside. i need to study well Brother! at least for once time in a life i need to really focus in studying :D
right now i feel like i need to depend more on self to face everything.
Because in the future i will live and survive alone, without Parents and BLIA YAD who keep surrounding me.





GOOD LUCK!
LOVE ME &
STAY STRONG



Rong Lee

Hello my Brother, How do you do? .
in this month i am having a serious course to improve my English, and it is not as easy as i thought when i need to focus in every detail of the grammars, and writing format.
How are you doing Brother ? Do you feel good?. What is in your mind right now?. Are you Happy?

Me?
actually i am feeling great to have an adventure for myself, deciding to study overseas, have a chance to plan my own way of life. I am never have this kind of adrenaline to prepare myself for everything new.

Yeah, actually i am afraid for everything, but my faith push me to overcome it no matter what will happen later.
That is nice when you live by having a purpose in life, like i told you before brother that i want to see the outside world.

Brother, i like to tell you something about myself ,
This person have so many desires inside, This person have so many talents, this person have so many Dreams, and He is confusing himself right now , about which one that he needs to trow away or keep.
Inside his heart now, he likes to grab any chance to achieve all of it, but there are a depression when he realized that he is too late to play around.

actually i don't care about " Age " but there are a Dream which requires Young Age, so right now i plan the easiest way to be achieve as " START " and i will slowly follow what is in front of me, and of course i won't  throw any of my dream behind, but keep it safe for a while.

Thanks to my Mom, She really always be my side right now, although i know She is sad to let me go far away, but she keep concerning about my preparation and appreciate my decision. Right now i feel like spending my whole time with Her, i know She is the one who will suffer later because of me. I decided to have a tour to Europe with her on this August , just two of us. Because of that i have to skip my regular BLIA YAD Activity later on August, and of course i need to do permission to YADers, If only i can divide myself into two -.- .

Brother , there are one thing, which make me sad recently,
to be honest there are another person who i wish for guidance and support, but in the end i am a little bit sad, when this person misunderstanding , and gave me such a guilty feeling during this hardest moment , instead of warm welcome and understanding.

sometime it creates some negative mind for me to think of feeling like being rejected when i am not in much help anymore, but actually until now i tried to keep erasing that unnecessary mind, and i know that person is still care about me, yes i do.

There are a lot of things that i would like to share with this person, i discovered a lot of new things, and solutions that i believe it will help much, but i don't find any right moment to tell it, and haven't found any guts to tell because too many weakness will be revealed.

i know to let go something precious is very hard things to do..
Me also had been walked trough all of the dilemma, and emotion my own. In order to be stay strong and have a steady mind, i choose to act on the opposite way to make people let me go , so i can settle my feeling more easily.
but the fact is i am always grateful to be grow up in this lovely environment :)

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Brother i went to North Sumatra Zoo with friends on 17 June 2012, although the zoo is neglected and squalid , it was fun to have a new activity to do. During out tour around the zoo, i have kind of feeling, when i look at the animals' eyes is "Sad" and "Lonely".

I always describe myself as a Horse, Eagle, Tiger, Elephant, Deer as my personalities. but when i looked at the animals who trapped in a very narrow,squalid and empty cage, in the same time i thought what happen if i was they ? and it give me a very sad and lonely feeling.

i wish i can become Horse, which suppose to run as fast as i can and have a strong loyality, I with to become an eagle which suppose to fly higher without boundaries,
tiger which strong and self protection , Elephant which very kind and humble, Deer which very charismatic and respectful, all of them had lose their pride and couldn't anything but full of lonely and hopeless drawn in their eyes.

at the moment i think what will i do if i am inside that cage? What Happen if i have no freedom and being controlled for not having a dream ?

Right now i have my freedom to get my dream, why should i being afraid? why should i need to be hesitate and being controlled or confuse when i have so many friends to share, chance to see the world, chance to make a change.

It teaches me that sometime we like to make our own Cage,

We don't fly when we have capability to fly, but we blame everything because laziness, and have no dreams , and in the end we live pathetically .


At that time i told myself " Yes, i want to live my life till the fullest " " I don't want being in the cage"

i don't want to live because people gave you food and force you to do everything that you don't like to do as an elephant which gave me a short ride that time.

It was a very remarkable moment and thanks for all the animal which told me to be free and gave me high motivation to start my day again..



Love Me and Stay Strong
Rong Lee