hey diary..
this is like a dream..
tomorrow i am going to fly to Taiwan Fo Guang Shan..

last week..at 24 - 27 June 2010
I just have a spectacular event with Yaders at lovely Xiang Shan Shi..

Committees all is damn tired..
can you imagine..
not 2 and 3 hours for 4 days..plus Never ended spirit in the morning..
Eat Fast..and need big focus..

this activity is really suck my whole energy..
but who knows we make it..
the sacrifices..makes all members feel convenient..

this Harmonize Camp bring me a lot of memories..
the answer that i seek for this year came out..

yeah.. i can't tell you right now..what is the answer.. because i need to make sure and do analysis first..

in this activity .. the first time BLIA YAD offer a responsible for members to become a group leader..
all of them is awesome..
looking at them give me a picture how me and all committees looks like when the first time stand up in BLIA YAD..
looking at them..i can see how big people can change..
i joined BLIA YAD for 7 years.. and i really do feel i had change a lot..
of course not all is change better..like myself..
some part i trust i change better..
some part i realize i can forget something important..

to be honest..everybody had changed..no exception..
the feeling.. the way people think.. the point of view change a lot..
sometimes we can say that is better..sometimes people can said that is worse..

looking at all members and Leaders.. make me realized how simple are we.. long long time a go..
and how far we had changed ..

i realized how hard someone to be simple..when i looked at them i said to myself..
i like to be simple..and pure to see this life..
and to be honest its quite difficult..
but i believe everything have the time..

this is human being..
sometimes we think we had changed so good..
we think we are smart..when we can handle a several case..
we think we have the biggest experience after we success in one case..
but sometimes there are something we had forgot..
the small part which the most important one..
and at that time we realize.." aaa.. this is not what i want.."

i learned something today.."not all perfect things is always good for everybody .."
like myself..sometimes i try to be perfect in everybody's eyes ..
i like to create a very perfect system..
i want people to be proud at me..
i want to exist when people really need me..
i want to be strong and strong and strong..

but sometimes it not means always have good result..
too perfect not always give us happiness..

i think sometimes this life not complete without problem and
without weakness..
we can felt like..everything just alright..
nothing to fix..nothing to learn..

sometime after we passed a lot of problem and experience.. mind pushed us to be stronger and stronger...
try to think different..
try to do different..and change our point of view..

at that moment we can think this is good..yeahh we becoming mature and mature..

but sometimes we didn't realize we had changed and control by Ego and Life..
and Harmonize will slowly hard to get..in our life..because we forgot to think simple.. haha
this what i think.. To be simple..

Tomorrow is the day...
The Day where i need to fight my self..
and try to accept myself more..

Appearance, Name is a weakness that always attacking people including myself..
i like to beat down that weakness..

tonight i just cut my hair into 1 cm..

haha
it needs a big courage actually for me haha..
right here i can know..appearance is also my priority haha

but now..i believe..personality is more important than appearence..
appearance will become a stress for us..and become our weakness..

at 4 July 2010..
i will totally become a monk..with a bald head...

people will think i am an alien..( maybe )
but now..i'm ready for it..
i talk to my self..
and i like to prove to myself..
 " hey this is me "
" Rong Lee " the real me..

i am going to  sleep now..
tomorrow will be a good day..and nice experience for me..
To be continue..