Hey Brother,
how are you doing ?

I have a very good news for you today :D.
My Visa had been approved ! Very thanks to Buddha for making everything run so smoothly for me.
I am so grateful for not having any problem about the Visa, because i can't imagine how sad i will be, if there are any problem occurs and i need to delay my class and wait longer.

You know brother, i sound want to go quickly but when today i realize that now is the next step for me to start deciding the date for my departure, what comes in my mind is my friends.... my family............this home.....this bed room, this childhood :)

I just know to decide the date is not as simple as i think, I told my friends that i wish to go faster, but now when I got the freedom to choose, i need to stop for while.. sitting.. and nostalgic with all my past memories..

The Orientation is on 7 January 2013, and i can go at 4 January 2013, or maybe at 3 January, because some of my friend suggest me to go faster so i can still have time to prepare things there. Right now, i haven't decide when to go.

Talking about my friends and 2nd family, the last event that i can spend my time with is during the Old & New Party, which will be held on 30 Dec - 1 Jan. They are doing a festival and small concert again :). But I decided not to join any performance, because I haven't decide the day to enter the whole new world. I know i can't become so focus with any performance in this condition when I need something to adapt with. I need a moment of peace and silence to arrange all the feeling. Right now i feel like to sit dow and watch everyone and treasure them in my mind.

Right know i am kind of confuse about how i spend my day with especially in Old & New. With my friends or with my family. I don't know who are going to miss me more haahahaha. Just Kidding bro, i am the one who are going to miss them more :)

I want to spend my joy and welcoming the new hope generation in my 2nd Family BLIA YAD, beside that i know my mom and my dad going to looking at me like a lonely person and wish to be with me too. If i have a bigger body, longer hand, i wish i can hug everyone in one hug and tell them how much i am going to miss them.

But I think after i am sitting in front of my desk tonight and remind my self about how much i love everything that had came to my life, and remind how lucky i am to be born as not perfect person, but have a happy moment. I think i have a way to solve this confusion :)

I want to make sure i do something that can make everyone happy :)
yeah, i think thats all I can do now :)