Hey BROTHER!. I did it! i just returned from Europe with my mom!. Can you imagine it, IT IS EUROPE, MAN!!

It was the first time i ever visit a western country, visit that romantic city with my Mom.

Beautiful city, peaceful life style and clean. 

What is the most meaningful for me when visiting the Europe?

My answer is : My Mom :)

What i proud about myself is i have a chance to treasure my mom. I told you before brother that i am going to date my mom and spend my whole time with her. I realized i haven't take care and comfort her during my youth time. There are so much thing i haven't know about her. What is she think about me?. What is in her mind?.

Brother, During my day at Europe i talked to myself, in my youth moment i think a lot about other people, i think about my organization, i think about my dream, i think about other people feeling and i had been taught about " RESPONSIBILITY " but when i looked at my mom when she was asleep beside me, i realized i never think about her. I closely laid facing her, i realized there had been a lot of wrinkles in her eyes, there were some white hair grows at her hair. No matter what happen she is still the most prettiest woman that i ever have.
I slowly watching her eyes and listen to her breath and it sounds so tired. In once time my tears almost drop out for a while, i looked at her hands her skin is getting old.

Right now i realized i had been so stupid to over react about what people feel when the fact nobody care about themselves, looking at my mom just make me realized there are a person who meant to be protected.

I remember my childhood moment, I am the one who always following my mom going from bedroom to kitchen by standing at her feet and hug him like a koala. I wonder how long i haven't hug her like a kid anymore. At the moment i asked myself " Are you Happy Mom? "

Out there, i am always afraid to hurt people feeling, i always think what will people feel, trying to understand other people stubbornness, but my Mom is the one who really always think about how i feel, how much i hurt, understand about my stubbornness and always open arm to accept me. I even never think about her feeling.

There are one things that i regret most for my past is when i love other people more than my own mom, when i think other people understand me better than my own mom :). I thanks to Buddha had shown me and give me the time to fix everything that had gone wrong. In the end i just know the one who really support and understand me quietly is my mom. The one never take advantages from me, but just giving and pray.

To think how much i didn't care about her and realized she even never complain about me it makes my hurt more painful. I laid in her shoulder and i smell deeply her fragrance that so comfortable,i felt so safe and warm
and i had the best sleep ever so far in my life.

When we were walking,  going shopping around the beautiful city, i just realized my mom had been so weak. Her arms hurt, her foot getting tired so easily. There are one moment when myself and mom getting lost from the group during the city tour. My Mom got panicked so easily and it messed up my mood, i told her to stay calm and said that they will find us soon, but my mom kept worried.
I grabbed her hands and hold her tightly to walk and walk searching for the group. At that moment i said to myself that i wish i can comfort you more starting today like this when you feel unsafe.

I am glad we have this kind of experience, getting lost in Europe, it created a funny moment if we remember this story :). Sometimes if embarrassing things happen, that can be the unforgettable moment in life :)

after the small incident i told my mom getting panic or emotional is useless and make everything worst. In the same time i realized i never teach anything that i learn from my environment to my Mom. :)

oh yeah and i have my birthday party at EUROPE :), it was a surprise simple birthday and i am really happy for that :)

let me tell you something brother, i have caught a fever at the night during my birthday, the effect after working under there rain in Independence Day event suddenly pump out in my special holiday and i even don't let my mom know. I asked Buddha for his responsibility and claimed to postpone this fever, and such a miracle the fever disappeared in 1 night.

Thanks Buddha :)

I can't imagine if i fall sick during my date with my mom there :)

There are something funnier happened also during my tour with my mom, 3 people think that Me and my Mom is a husband and wife, although i sound old but i am happy that my mom stay young.

Brother, I learned something in my journey, about What is Family suppose to be :)

Never say I am your " Family ", when I did wrong and you hate me forever.

Never say I am your " Family ", when i am so tired and confuse but you are not there to ask "what happen to you?"

Never say I am your " Family ", when you don't have passion enough to guide and trust me that i am the best person that you ever know.

Never say I am your " Family ", if someday i change bad, but you are not there to welcome me home.

Never say I am your " Family ", if someday i don't follow what you want and you judge me useless forever. 

Never say i am your " Family ", if you even don't spare your time to ask me " how are you doing? "
Never say i am your " Family ", if you even can't say sorry and panic when i hurt .
Never say i am your " Family ", if you don't care about my Dream.
Never say i am your " Family ", if you have ego higher than me.
Never say i am your " Family ", only when you need me or I am there for you.

Family should know when to teach and when to listen " like my mom :)
Sorry Mom, i never did all of that to you.

Mom, right now i wish i always there beside you to responsible for your safety, protect you from harm. I promised you i will be great, i will never waste my life, i will do what i really happy for, i will value my life by giving other people hope and inspiration.

I know you will be missing me so much when my day to study overseas is come. I am glad i have a chance to be with you 10 days without anybody interruption. Thank you for everything, thank you to understand how foolish myself before. Thank you for the support of everything that i loved to do. Thank you for thinking about my happiness :)

Sarange.

Love from the deepen of my heart even my life

Rong Lee