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Hey bro, how are you doing? I just realized i wrote something but i haven't post it..
this is the story that i wrote during in Switzerland :)


I wrote this on 21 January 2013



I am here already, at the land of Switzerland, who can believe it I live at the whole different place..
right now I am already entering  the 3rd week already.

For this 2 week, a lot of things happened and I had fun. I passed some difficulty in the first time, especially my language, it makes me hard to understand what people said, and keep miss understanding a lot of things.

Always feeling so small, approximately when i talked about " Patisseries and Chocolate "
a person who comes from zero, entering a class which full with experience classmate.
The teacher explain and teach with a very unfamiliar words to me. I understand nothing just the same as a kid who entering a kindergarden in the first day. What i can do right now is only learn by doing a mistake.

Tonight i am talking to you , because i am in a very quiet condition and need to be alone to think about what should I do and what I am doing now. In this 2 weeks I keep trying to learn from my new friends, seeing a lot of new thing but i didn't have time to sit down for a while and finding my own self.

Somehow inside myself told me that there are something that i need to fix. I never told you before I have new friends here. I am lucky that they are ready to teach and help me about the class lesson.
I think Buddha had arranged everything for me.

I am telling you brother, this time I am really entering a whole new different life. I even don't know what kind of person I will meet, what place I will go.. everything so unpredictable. 
I believe everything was hard in the first time but will get used very soon. 

Brother, I need to focus to my dream now, I need to settle down all mixed out new things that comes to me wildly, and stay focus to what i want to do and what i want to dream. 
There are a things that i learn from here in the first time, which is " Be yourselves "
Never forget who you are and do what you like to do.


Stay Strong
Rong Lee



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Hey Brother, I am here! it's finally I am take my first step to the outside world...


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Until next time BLIA YAD :)


Dear BLIA YAD Indonesia

This year is the year where I decided to start learning to walk with my own foot to see the outside world. For 9 years I have been evolved and grown with BLIA YAD. For 9 years I have done many mistakes and found so many flaws but I was never afraid, because you always held my hands and told me " You will be better ".
After passing this 2012 with you.
I am going to start walking alone without having you beside me. It had been so difficult for me in the first time, until today i am trying to arrange all my feeling and told you that
"We will get used with this" and " We need to get used with this together "

I decide to walk alone is not because i don't need you, but that because I know this is the time for both of us to be a part for a while, so we are going to have a new spirit, a new story to be shared in the future, but still chasing a same dream.

That is you who have carved myself become a person that always have courage to learn new things, a figure who always change to be more wiser and stronger by having full of awareness to correct any deficiencies in self. You inspired me, and know you make me dream to inspire other, you guided how me to treasure this imperfection world and live my life till the fullest.
The most importantly YOU have taught me never wasting my precious youth moment. This word always ringing inside my heart and now it guides me to start exploring this life. 

9 years probably the perfect number for both of us to step out from our comfort zone to experience and continue a new stories in our book. Like in a story book there always have chapter 1 and the next chapter with a new beautiful story to be shared. I believe our story already reached the climax and there were so many beautiful moments we had written in our chapter 1 and now we need to end it beautifully. After that let's continue with more colorful, challenging, and fresh story with new attractive prominent figures in chapter 2. 
I always wish one day I can truly develop BLIA YAD like in my dream long time ago, seeing Buddhism prosperity, seeing all my family being success and together hand in hand until one day we belong to heaven. Together we made the most beautiful history ever that makes everybody proud 
Unfortunately right now i can't help BLIA YAD much and really makes everyone happy for this 9 years. I found there are so many lacking inside myself. I found out both of us need to explore more and really found out what is the meaning of Life.


Dear BLIA YAD I'm sorry i can't always by your side, i always understand how will you feel to see one by one being apart to pursue own happiness. There always you, who wait and let go in silence and with smile in your face. I understand that feeling and i don't know how to make you feel that this is fair, because it's truly seems unfair for you.
Maybe it sound selfish, but i always want you to never let go and give up. We all can leave for a while but you should not. That's because I need you and everyone needs you.
I don't know how to say sorry to you, or how to comfort you, but i just can say "THANK YOU".
I don't know how to encourage you to be happy or to be strong, but i just can say " To be with you and to have you in my life, that is the most precious undescribable happiness, light and hope that Buddha had sent to me".
I just want you to know that I am really happy to have you to be my teacher, mother and my best friend.
Dear Love one, I briefly excuse myself to go for awhile for gaining some knowledge, chasing my dream and becoming a useful person for people i loved. I will be right back and going to share with you every single beautiful things that i learned from there. 
For both of us we need to "FIGHTING" !!!!!!! and together let's make our dream comes true

With all my respect ,Until next time..
Love me and be right back

Rong Lee

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Coincidence














Hi Brother, how are you? what are you doing?

I have nothing to do now, today i am reviewing my future plan, and starting to buy some stuff for my study to a whole new world which coming more CLOSER.
NERVOUS(20%), EXCITED(50%) and SURRENDER(30%) that's all how i count my feeling in percentage.

Nervous about how i should decide to write a new whole chapter story, nervous about how to start because everything seems so blur. As you can see my Surrender categories reached 30% , which means i surrender myself to restart my life, being Vulnerable to accept everything that will come to me, I surrender my future to this opportunity. I surrender  myself to fight hard and dying there, struggle until i alive again to be a new valuable person.

I have the highest percentages of Excited category which reached 50 percent. That means I am excited to know what will happen to myself, what amazing new people i will meet, what inspiration can inspire me, how far i can survive, how far i can learn. I am really excited about things that are going to happen to me. I am totally excited to learn a new things, I am excited to be a better person.

Today i went to buy plenty of new stuff for my self with my beautiful person ever ( My Mom ). I got new Nike shoes, sweater, blazer, hat, scarf, and some girly stuff such as makeup like body lotion, lip balm, face lotion to protect me from freezing cold winter that i never experience in Indonesia .
Oh yeah i even get new underwear (oops) lol.

Although this year i couldn't pass my chinese new year with my lovely family and family, I tough i am going to save a lot of money from buying new clothes. but... i think i spend more this year lol.

Brother, last week i decided to depart on 1 January regardless to the ticket price, but now i feel like Buddha plan something better for me. Maybe you won't believe me, but i know Buddha ask me to spend my precious new year with Him. :)

Did i ever tell you some weird story about a person i met during interview for my Visa at Jakarta?
I think not yet, this is my story....
I met a person who are going to do interview that time, her name is Milka, She is going to study in a same university with me, but different college but still at Swiss too.
That time i feel so grateful to have some new friends who are going to share same information, but something funny happened when we know that we born at same month and year. We are in a same age,brother haha.

I tough i am too old to start my study, but see... I am totally wrong.

Brother, Do you think this is coincidence ?

I think Buddha plan everything for me, He know how to help me by make us met and help each other. Can you imagine this? Same date and time of interview, University, even same month and year of birth.
at least i don't feel all alone now. :)

Both of our Visa had been approved too in a same day, and She going to swiss on 2nd January, so I think maybe  it's a good idea to arrived in a same date and we catch up each other to prepare everything before starting the class.

That time i am already booked my ticket on 1st January, and if that fixed already, i am not capable to join Old & New party with Buddha this year, I am going to miss that warm feeling with my friends but Buddha decided different from me, He cleared my dillemma and He know how not to make me feel miserable for this New year.

I got a sudden news from my agent and she said my visa noted that i only can enter swiss on 4 January 2013, which means i need to cancel my ticket. I asked My new friend Milka about this issue, and we found that our arrival date in our Visa is different, She can enter Swiss since December which earlier than mine.
So there is something make me keep wondering. We did interview in same date, same time, we going to same country, same university, even get approval in a same day, but Why we got a different arrival date in our Visa?

That's why when i got this news, i am speechless and i knew what i should do in this Last Year. :) I am going  to ask for your permission and spend this precious year with Buddha, family and my 2nd family before i'm starting my new journey. Thanks for arranging me such a beautiful schedule for me. :)

I am feeling so blessed brother, although i told you i am so blur about what i should do and decide for my future later, but i have this BIG COURAGE inside my heart , I don't know where this courage come from, but i feel like someone talk and ask me not to stop, keep walking and i am going to be alright. Everything will be cleared when the time has come.

Brother, Christmas is near!
what is your plan, i wish i can celebrate it again with all my friends and family.
i feel like to pass this christmas with so much joy with people i love, but everyone seems so busy with their own schedule, i wonder how to make everyone gather and celebrate it. :)

Hey, brother something funny happened again just now, someone found me on Facebook and she said she is going to enter a same class date too, lol.
She is from Bangkok, and my flight is going to transit at Bangkok too, who knows we can met there.
She is going to reached at 4 January too, and maybe we can be classmate later haha
She is a fresh start in Culinary like me too!

See brother, we always have friends, Buddha always know how to less my worries. :)

There is never too late to set a new dream and start a new better day. 


so many coincidence happen today haha..


Brother, everything seems so fine lately. I have more courage after talking with you tonight,

        Both of us, Let's start a new better life together :)



Thank you for everything.


Love Me and Stay strong
Rong Lee










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Memories and Future

Hey Brother,
how are you doing ?

I have a very good news for you today :D.
My Visa had been approved ! Very thanks to Buddha for making everything run so smoothly for me.
I am so grateful for not having any problem about the Visa, because i can't imagine how sad i will be, if there are any problem occurs and i need to delay my class and wait longer.

You know brother, i sound want to go quickly but when today i realize that now is the next step for me to start deciding the date for my departure, what comes in my mind is my friends.... my family............this home.....this bed room, this childhood :)

I just know to decide the date is not as simple as i think, I told my friends that i wish to go faster, but now when I got the freedom to choose, i need to stop for while.. sitting.. and nostalgic with all my past memories..

The Orientation is on 7 January 2013, and i can go at 4 January 2013, or maybe at 3 January, because some of my friend suggest me to go faster so i can still have time to prepare things there. Right now, i haven't decide when to go.

Talking about my friends and 2nd family, the last event that i can spend my time with is during the Old & New Party, which will be held on 30 Dec - 1 Jan. They are doing a festival and small concert again :). But I decided not to join any performance, because I haven't decide the day to enter the whole new world. I know i can't become so focus with any performance in this condition when I need something to adapt with. I need a moment of peace and silence to arrange all the feeling. Right now i feel like to sit dow and watch everyone and treasure them in my mind.

Right know i am kind of confuse about how i spend my day with especially in Old & New. With my friends or with my family. I don't know who are going to miss me more haahahaha. Just Kidding bro, i am the one who are going to miss them more :)

I want to spend my joy and welcoming the new hope generation in my 2nd Family BLIA YAD, beside that i know my mom and my dad going to looking at me like a lonely person and wish to be with me too. If i have a bigger body, longer hand, i wish i can hug everyone in one hug and tell them how much i am going to miss them.

But I think after i am sitting in front of my desk tonight and remind my self about how much i love everything that had came to my life, and remind how lucky i am to be born as not perfect person, but have a happy moment. I think i have a way to solve this confusion :)

I want to make sure i do something that can make everyone happy :)
yeah, i think thats all I can do now :)


Thank you brother, :) talking with you always make my mind clear, make my heart feel so warm.
Like the name that i gave to you " EVERYTHING " You always there to listen everything about me and you always there to give me every answer for my heart. :)


Oh yeah brother ..
This is some picture of my simple graduation Day lol



Good Night WOrld

Love Me
Rong Lee











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Bold enough to be different

Hey brother, long time no see again :)
how are you doing?

I am feeling so blur right now brother, i don't know how i feel, feeling like " What is this ? " " Why I am Here ", " What am i doing " Feel like standing in my place and everything around me moving unstop able. I am just looking around without saying anything. I am standing in my place and looking for one thing that stop  for me and make my heart decide to take my first step when everything move too wildly.
I feel like this is the moment where i don't care about happiness and sad. I feel like it's too soon to said i am happy, and too soon for me to say i am sad, when i don't really experience enough about myself.
What i'm all thinking about is the day when everything will change and everything will be cleared is closer and closer. Maybe i can say that i am in neutral condition, where i don't feel happy and sad. I am in a middle position where i have a freedom to choose go to left ( sad ) or go to right ( happy ). In that position, but i still believe when i got to left it doesn't mean i am really sad, and when i go to right it doesn't really mean i am happy either. :)

Brother, the day is coming closer to continue my journey in another place :) I'm still can't imagine it when the first time i told you about my desire to explore the new world. Everything seems so blank and hopeless to make that decision, but now it is standing in front of me. I just need to wait for little longer and i will be my own.
I will fly freely as a bird, run wildly and steadily as a horse. Finding my self, and become what i want to become.
It such a long way that i had been prepared, such as rushing all my documents, practicing German language, looking for information, interview for my Visa that caused me to flown to Jakarta which i haven't told you yet.
I met some friends, listening to some advise from my family, knowing some new friends, finding some inspiration. :).

Having a bright future and valuable life is the reason i live :). Just, the future seems so blur now, and i haven't found which path that my heart will really choose, because i know if i doesn't dig it than i never found it. So i am going to find it soon :).
I just can't find it here, i don't know why. Being in here i feel like everything had been set for me, my environment pushed me to be normal, people wish me to have a proper life, but what i want is to be different. I don't know how to tell ya about being different right now, because i am on my way to find it now, and i have nothing to prove it. I just found it when i follow all normal people point of view, my value of life is just not myself. I want something more :)

oh yeah brother, I had my German course for a month now, so much things to memorize lol. it seems a whole world to master this language now, so many new word to memorize. You know brother, right now i just feel that i need to keep going, not hesitate and questioning too much even everything seems so blur. I Just keep walking and do what i need to do, feel what i need to feel, and something told me inside " Everything will be cleared  later " so do not stop now.
I am doing this too with my german practice, i know questioning too much now is just make me confuse more to adapt with the rule's language. so i just keep going and i believe i will get used to it and everything will be very cleared to me.

Right now i am being a tea pot where before inside the pot is full with water, so i need to pour it out from the tea pot until it's empty, so i can enjoy and refill a new water.
I want to be a person who have no limitation to learn a new things. So recently i listen more than i speak brother :)


OH THATS RIGHT! There some news that i would like to tell you brother.

Tomorrow is my
 GRADUATION DAYYYYYY !!!!! TADAAA!!
SURPRISE!!

I Finished my Business Management Bachelor Degree :)
FINALLY!!!!!!!!
yeah, at last i did my promise right? :D.
It seems so late to graduate but i am not running a way, at last i prove to myself and Buddha that i am not wasting my time :)
Actually I am not proud about my title , but what i proud is that i keep my promise. That's my point :)

Now I have no worry my brother, people i loved here have a new hope, i had helped them as much as i can, and what i like to say i had told them all. The wish that i wish had been heard and now i believe everything will be back to the right track :)

Right now i just need to fix myself and make sure i am making a right decision for myself :). I had been my own recently, only think about what i want and looking for my inspiration.
I am full of desire now my brother, haha
Sometimes it's kind of making me to think how unfair is this world, because when i am just have a chance to make a new big step for my own, the world gives me a very limited time and told me " Hey ROng!! you getting OLD !" LOL
and i just said to the world " OHH COME ON!!  i haven't start anything! " haha GIVE ME SOME MORE YEAR TO EXPLORE! LOL

I have no regret my brother :) that because what i did in the past is clearly my decision, nobody push it, it sincerely the things that i can give. I just did what my heart ask me to do.
I am a person who following what my heart said. Thats why i have no regret.
Everything that i had in my memories is something that make me a person, something that make me valuable, something that i can be proud of.
yeah that is human being :) i found some quote that really suit with my condition, it is about
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." -- Mark Twain




Okay, then, i need to go to bed now .
Gute Natch Bro.

Stay strong and Love Me

Rong Lee










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Memories in Europe with Mama



Hey BROTHER!. I did it! i just returned from Europe with my mom!. Can you imagine it, IT IS EUROPE, MAN!!
It was the first time i ever visit a western country, visit that romantic city with my Mom.
Beautiful city, peaceful life style and clean. 

What is the most meaningful for me when visiting the Europe?
My answer is : My Mom :)

What i proud about myself is i have a chance to treasure my mom. I told you before brother that i am going to date my mom and spend my whole time with her. I realized i haven't take care and comfort her during my youth time. There are so much thing i haven't know about her. What is she think about me?. What is in her mind?.

Brother, During my day at Europe i talked to myself, in my youth moment i think a lot about other people, i think about my organization, i think about my dream, i think about other people feeling and i had been taught about " RESPONSIBILITY " but when i looked at my mom when she was asleep beside me, i realized i never think about her. I closely laid facing her, i realized there had been a lot of wrinkles in her eyes, there were some white hair grows at her hair. No matter what happen she is still the most prettiest woman that i ever have.
I slowly watching her eyes and listen to her breath and it sounds so tired. In once time my tears almost drop out for a while, i looked at her hands her skin is getting old.

Right now i realized i had been so stupid to over react about what people feel when the fact nobody care about themselves, looking at my mom just make me realized there are a person who meant to be protected.

I remember my childhood moment, I am the one who always following my mom going from bedroom to kitchen by standing at her feet and hug him like a koala. I wonder how long i haven't hug her like a kid anymore. At the moment i asked myself " Are you Happy Mom? "

Out there, i am always afraid to hurt people feeling, i always think what will people feel, trying to understand other people stubbornness, but my Mom is the one who really always think about how i feel, how much i hurt, understand about my stubbornness and always open arm to accept me. I even never think about her feeling.

There are one things that i regret most for my past is when i love other people more than my own mom, when i think other people understand me better than my own mom :). I thanks to Buddha had shown me and give me the time to fix everything that had gone wrong. In the end i just know the one who really support and understand me quietly is my mom. The one never take advantages from me, but just giving and pray.

To think how much i didn't care about her and realized she even never complain about me it makes my hurt more painful. I laid in her shoulder and i smell deeply her fragrance that so comfortable,i felt so safe and warm
and i had the best sleep ever so far in my life.

When we were walking,  going shopping around the beautiful city, i just realized my mom had been so weak. Her arms hurt, her foot getting tired so easily. There are one moment when myself and mom getting lost from the group during the city tour. My Mom got panicked so easily and it messed up my mood, i told her to stay calm and said that they will find us soon, but my mom kept worried.
I grabbed her hands and hold her tightly to walk and walk searching for the group. At that moment i said to myself that i wish i can comfort you more starting today like this when you feel unsafe.

I am glad we have this kind of experience, getting lost in Europe, it created a funny moment if we remember this story :). Sometimes if embarrassing things happen, that can be the unforgettable moment in life :)
after the small incident i told my mom getting panic or emotional is useless and make everything worst. In the same time i realized i never teach anything that i learn from my environment to my Mom. :)

oh yeah and i have my birthday party at EUROPE :), it was a surprise simple birthday and i am really happy for that :)
let me tell you something brother, i have caught a fever at the night during my birthday, the effect after working under there rain in Independence Day event suddenly pump out in my special holiday and i even don't let my mom know. I asked Buddha for his responsibility and claimed to postpone this fever, and such a miracle the fever disappeared in 1 night.
Thanks Buddha :)
I can't imagine if i fall sick during my date with my mom there :)





There are something funnier happened also during my tour with my mom, 3 people think that Me and my Mom is a husband and wife, although i sound old but i am happy that my mom stay young.

Brother, I learned something in my journey, about What is Family suppose to be :)

Never say I am your " Family ", when I did wrong and you hate me forever.
Never say I am your " Family ", when i am so tired and confuse but you are not there to ask "what happen to you?"
Never say I am your " Family ", when you don't have passion enough to guide and trust me that i am the best person that you ever know.
Never say I am your " Family ", if someday i change bad, but you are not there to welcome me home.
Never say I am your " Family ", if someday i don't follow what you want and you judge me useless forever. 
Never say i am your " Family ", if you even don't spare your time to ask me " how are you doing? "
Never say i am your " Family ", if you even can't say sorry and panic when i hurt .
Never say i am your " Family ", if you don't care about my Dream.
Never say i am your " Family ", if you have ego higher than me.
Never say i am your " Family ", only when you need me or I am there for you.

Family should know when to teach and when to listen " like my mom :)
Sorry Mom, i never did all of that to you.

Mom, right now i wish i always there beside you to responsible for your safety, protect you from harm. I promised you i will be great, i will never waste my life, i will do what i really happy for, i will value my life by giving other people hope and inspiration.

I know you will be missing me so much when my day to study overseas is come. I am glad i have a chance to be with you 10 days without anybody interruption. Thank you for everything, thank you to understand how foolish myself before. Thank you for the support of everything that i loved to do. Thank you for thinking about my happiness :)

Sarange.


Love from the deepen of my heart even my life
Rong Lee




























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First Memories


Dear Rong Lee..
Tonight is the first time i uploaded so many picture in facebook, i was accidentally entered my old story picture's album and it was a heart warming to review my beautiful moment :) 

Although everything changes, but memories always remain the same in my heart.
All the past stories was replaying in my mind, all the feeling was undescriabeable. It was beautiful. Yes it Is :)
All that i can say now, is thank You, thank you and thank you.

I wish everybody live well,be good, have faith, have dream and found their own way to happiness.

To be able to be born as Rong Lee and have this kind of feeling is the greatest gift and i shouldn't dare even to complain.


The moment where i dare to dream, the moment where i believe i can change the world, the moment where i realize this life is beautiful, the moment where i believe me and everyone that i love will shine brighter than the sun.
That courage i will never forget about it.

that first faith is the one who change me to be what i am now.
Maybe someday i will change, i will struggle, fall and wake up to find my own path, but that beautiful memories will never change.

I wish i grow up to be a strong person in order to success i should not ever forget about my first dream and first reason to live well :)

Sorry if right now i am not strong enough to help and protect my faith, but i won't give up.
Someday, the day will come when we all grow really strong and even the Tsunami , earthquake, and Storm can not take down our Dream and Love. Our story will become the most beautiful history ever written at the blue sky, our smile will brighten up the world . Someday, I believe we can find our happiness.

My first Reason, Thank you to give me courage :)
Please always be inside this heart 



Love Me and Stay Strong 
Rong Lee

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Plan of leaving

Brother, I plan to leave my lovely town on January 2012, everything is so new for me and i don't really know what should i prepare beside steady my english, and general knowledge more. Preparing some report is what I have to do now.

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As Long The Door Always Open












Brother :)

My friend just sent me a message and asked me the issue that he/she heard about my plan to leave BLIA YAD because for starting my new life overseas..
To be honest i found it a little funny and pissed off in the beginning, but now i feel so thankful and happy for having trust by people :)

This friend mad and scold me about not being selfish , she asked me about how can i let go easily BLIA YAD who i had been living with for 8 years ? he/she even told me to stop have my dream to study overseas because it won't guarantee me can be success. :)
I can't believe there will be someone who can said this horrible things to someone who need encouragement right now,
but i am no longer have any anger for he/she , what i can do is only smiling. When i heard about this thing it made me want to go even more.
It is sad to have people who judge you bad because of something that you need to do for living.
but if i rethink, i should be grateful to live as person who can be depended by people and this is a reflection of how pure my friend love BLIA YAD :)

This what i called " miss understanding " , sometimes we want to care but unintentionally hurt people feeling and of course we can't hate other and turn it into grudge forever because of this common mistake :)

This person told me that BLIA YAD needs me and i should help when they need a help.
At that moment, i though about what help they need from me? What guidance should i give?.

We are not living and wasting time to face a same problem, or mistake. all we need to have as human being is " Meeting and have a better Understanding", and the last thing is " Change "
this is the basic method that i always revealed out in every problem that i found, but it seems the hardest things to do because people tend to have strong self protection and ego.
There will be a problem when an organization stop listening and accept change.

I will go if i had to go, i will stay if i really need to stay. This Heart always know what is the best for everyone and myself, i had done what i can do for 8 years, and i had fulfilled all my promises to Buddha. I had done my best, and take my responsibility seriously but of course people always ask more and more , and good is never enough. Maybe some people will think i am such an arrogant person, but i believe if other people understand clearly about myself who always do what my heart told me to do, they will think differently. I believe what i had been trough and felt are also had been experienced by other people when they want to do something bigger and give more. Sometimes i know people have the answer inside their heart, but they just afraid to dig it up :)


But i won't stay because of other people depends on me instead of depend on their own selves. There will be a problem when people don't have clear dream and afraid to make a change. BLIA YAD is a great organization, although it is not perfect and a lot of weakness, but they have strength to learn and have unlimited skill to overcome mistake and perfect each other.
although sometimes they look and sound foolish and hard to be understand about what they real intention, they act like crazy and struggle to find a real way to regenerated Buddhism and found a real dream, sometimes also unintentionally caused wrong perception in other people.

In my life i never met this kind of organization who make so much foolish things and create benefit for other people in the same time.
Sometimes they try hard to give other people happiness but without realizing it they lost their own happiness. How can we met this kind of people who dare to sacrifice?
Maybe people are going to said " How stupid those person who want to give happiness, but they don't feel happy" but the funny things is although sometimes they are stress, but they never stop or give up. In their mind give people happiness is a must. What will you think if in this world there are 80 percent people who dare to sacrifice for other people's happiness?
Have you ever met a person who care so much about other people satisfaction than self? although so many things sound mistake, but they have a clear intention to find a better way to understand Dharma, they believe can be wiser someday and never fall in a same hole in the future, they have very bright future :)

That's why i think this organization is the most unperfect and perfect thing that i ever met .

they don't need me actually, what they need is an experience, change perception, adaptation , listening , accept weakness, don't waste too much energy in a wrong activity, appreciation, be universal, open heart, open minded, and more understanding about real Life, so we can spread Buddhism without boundaries and limitation.


In BLIA YAD i learned how to accept things that is not perfect as something which have HOPE.
It taught me to live happily in this messy world, and it teaches me that we can't die no matter we do mistake because we can directly get up and fix it up. We won't die because of it.


BLIA YAD doesn't need a smart people , as long they always dare to accept new things, and willing to guide so BLIA YAD will always live in this Humanistic life...


Of course BLIA YAD will break if they ask more from people but ignore to guide people with better way, ask for understanding but refuse to understand life, and the most important thing is losing their track for their real Dream, which give people Hope and Happiness.

About my study overseas, i believe BLIA YAD will understand about what is the best for me and for themselves. There will be a time when everything need a change. As long BLIA YAD always open the door and welcome a nomad ( perantau ) like me to home, BLIA YAD and myself will never feel missing or losing .



Always love and Stay strong

Rong Lee




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Thank You !

Hai!
We met again :)
it seems that i am going to stick with you more often because i need to start studying how to do correct writing in academic. You know about my personalities right? a person who have no rule and always do everything with own style, just like my english writing right now. Writing a whole things without paid attention to grammar and spelling as long people understand that will be alright . LOL
And know i need to obey for every rule in order to get good score for my IELTS exam later, haha Sometimes in order to understand the world and obtain freedom, we need to adapt with the situation instead of asking people to adapt with us :)

Brother, tonight i realized something about " Gratitude  and Repay " after I read some sentences in Mater Hsing Yun 's Book, it said "


Master Hsing Yun's views about the love between parents and children , when the parents are young and helpful, the sons and daughters are going to fight to get her attention like the BASKET BALL , after a half old the sons and daughters will throw from each other and toying like VOLLEY BALL , and after parents are old and incapable, the daughter's and son began kicking them like SOCCER BALL.

I think that is right, because i unintentionally do this kind of things without realizing it, especially when i found my parents or maybe teacher, if they starting can't give any better solution or understanding, i will stop to do cooperation further. And now I feel i just being a Jerk .

As a person, if we want to be happy, the first thing we need to learn is know how to appreciate and repay people kindness, maybe there are a person who stubborn and won't listen to you, that will be alright as long we know how to yield and don't give up to give support and better way to repay all the kindness/teaching that we got.

Tonight i want to send my gratitude with everyone who had guide me and teach me about Life..
and I love and care with them like my own life, I wish all of us can learn how to be Wiser and Stronger to make a right understanding about life and change life to be a better place :)

I believe People will change someday :) ,know how to forgive is the most powerful strength to make life better.

Okay, i need to go to bed earlier because of the intensive class for my IELTS, which held from Monday to Friday from 09.00 to 13.30. Everytime when i didn't get enough sleep, it will affect my concentration and ruin my breakfast schedule.
Everyday at noon i will suffer hunger in the class because they didn't prepare you enough time and food eat inside. i need to study well Brother! at least for once time in a life i need to really focus in studying :D
right now i feel like i need to depend more on self to face everything.
Because in the future i will live and survive alone, without Parents and BLIA YAD who keep surrounding me.





GOOD LUCK!
LOVE ME &
STAY STRONG



Rong Lee

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