Hey brother, long time no see again :)
how are you doing?

I am feeling so blur right now brother, i don't know how i feel, feeling like " What is this ? " " Why I am Here ", " What am i doing " Feel like standing in my place and everything around me moving unstop able. I am just looking around without saying anything. I am standing in my place and looking for one thing that stop  for me and make my heart decide to take my first step when everything move too wildly.
I feel like this is the moment where i don't care about happiness and sad. I feel like it's too soon to said i am happy, and too soon for me to say i am sad, when i don't really experience enough about myself.
What i'm all thinking about is the day when everything will change and everything will be cleared is closer and closer. Maybe i can say that i am in neutral condition, where i don't feel happy and sad. I am in a middle position where i have a freedom to choose go to left ( sad ) or go to right ( happy ). In that position, but i still believe when i got to left it doesn't mean i am really sad, and when i go to right it doesn't really mean i am happy either. :)

Brother, the day is coming closer to continue my journey in another place :) I'm still can't imagine it when the first time i told you about my desire to explore the new world. Everything seems so blank and hopeless to make that decision, but now it is standing in front of me. I just need to wait for little longer and i will be my own.
I will fly freely as a bird, run wildly and steadily as a horse. Finding my self, and become what i want to become.
It such a long way that i had been prepared, such as rushing all my documents, practicing German language, looking for information, interview for my Visa that caused me to flown to Jakarta which i haven't told you yet.
I met some friends, listening to some advise from my family, knowing some new friends, finding some inspiration. :).

Having a bright future and valuable life is the reason i live :). Just, the future seems so blur now, and i haven't found which path that my heart will really choose, because i know if i doesn't dig it than i never found it. So i am going to find it soon :).
I just can't find it here, i don't know why. Being in here i feel like everything had been set for me, my environment pushed me to be normal, people wish me to have a proper life, but what i want is to be different. I don't know how to tell ya about being different right now, because i am on my way to find it now, and i have nothing to prove it. I just found it when i follow all normal people point of view, my value of life is just not myself. I want something more :)

oh yeah brother, I had my German course for a month now, so much things to memorize lol. it seems a whole world to master this language now, so many new word to memorize. You know brother, right now i just feel that i need to keep going, not hesitate and questioning too much even everything seems so blur. I Just keep walking and do what i need to do, feel what i need to feel, and something told me inside " Everything will be cleared  later " so do not stop now.
I am doing this too with my german practice, i know questioning too much now is just make me confuse more to adapt with the rule's language. so i just keep going and i believe i will get used to it and everything will be very cleared to me.

Right now i am being a tea pot where before inside the pot is full with water, so i need to pour it out from the tea pot until it's empty, so i can enjoy and refill a new water.
I want to be a person who have no limitation to learn a new things. So recently i listen more than i speak brother :)


OH THATS RIGHT! There some news that i would like to tell you brother.

Tomorrow is my
 GRADUATION DAYYYYYY !!!!! TADAAA!!
SURPRISE!!

I Finished my Business Management Bachelor Degree :)
FINALLY!!!!!!!!
yeah, at last i did my promise right? :D.
It seems so late to graduate but i am not running a way, at last i prove to myself and Buddha that i am not wasting my time :)
Actually I am not proud about my title , but what i proud is that i keep my promise. That's my point :)

Now I have no worry my brother, people i loved here have a new hope, i had helped them as much as i can, and what i like to say i had told them all. The wish that i wish had been heard and now i believe everything will be back to the right track :)

Right now i just need to fix myself and make sure i am making a right decision for myself :). I had been my own recently, only think about what i want and looking for my inspiration.
I am full of desire now my brother, haha
Sometimes it's kind of making me to think how unfair is this world, because when i am just have a chance to make a new big step for my own, the world gives me a very limited time and told me " Hey ROng!! you getting OLD !" LOL
and i just said to the world " OHH COME ON!!  i haven't start anything! " haha GIVE ME SOME MORE YEAR TO EXPLORE! LOL

I have no regret my brother :) that because what i did in the past is clearly my decision, nobody push it, it sincerely the things that i can give. I just did what my heart ask me to do.
I am a person who following what my heart said. Thats why i have no regret.
Everything that i had in my memories is something that make me a person, something that make me valuable, something that i can be proud of.
yeah that is human being :) i found some quote that really suit with my condition, it is about

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." -- Mark Twain

Okay, then, i need to go to bed now .
Gute Natch Bro.

Stay strong and Love Me

Rong Lee

Brother, I plan to leave my lovely town on January 2012, everything is so new for me and i don't really know what should i prepare beside steady my english, and general knowledge more. Preparing some report is what I have to do now.

Brother :)

My friend just sent me a message and asked me the issue that he/she heard about my plan to leave BLIA YAD because for starting my new life overseas..
To be honest i found it a little funny and pissed off in the beginning, but now i feel so thankful and happy for having trust by people :)

This friend mad and scold me about not being selfish , she asked me about how can i let go easily BLIA YAD who i had been living with for 8 years ? he/she even told me to stop have my dream to study overseas because it won't guarantee me can be success. :)
I can't believe there will be someone who can said this horrible things to someone who need encouragement right now,
but i am no longer have any anger for he/she , what i can do is only smiling. When i heard about this thing it made me want to go even more.
It is sad to have people who judge you bad because of something that you need to do for living.
but if i rethink, i should be grateful to live as person who can be depended by people and this is a reflection of how pure my friend love BLIA YAD :)

This what i called " miss understanding " , sometimes we want to care but unintentionally hurt people feeling and of course we can't hate other and turn it into grudge forever because of this common mistake :)

This person told me that BLIA YAD needs me and i should help when they need a help.
At that moment, i though about what help they need from me? What guidance should i give?.

We are not living and wasting time to face a same problem, or mistake. all we need to have as human being is " Meeting and have a better Understanding", and the last thing is " Change "
this is the basic method that i always revealed out in every problem that i found, but it seems the hardest things to do because people tend to have strong self protection and ego.
There will be a problem when an organization stop listening and accept change.

I will go if i had to go, i will stay if i really need to stay. This Heart always know what is the best for everyone and myself, i had done what i can do for 8 years, and i had fulfilled all my promises to Buddha. I had done my best, and take my responsibility seriously but of course people always ask more and more , and good is never enough. Maybe some people will think i am such an arrogant person, but i believe if other people understand clearly about myself who always do what my heart told me to do, they will think differently. I believe what i had been trough and felt are also had been experienced by other people when they want to do something bigger and give more. Sometimes i know people have the answer inside their heart, but they just afraid to dig it up :)


But i won't stay because of other people depends on me instead of depend on their own selves. There will be a problem when people don't have clear dream and afraid to make a change. BLIA YAD is a great organization, although it is not perfect and a lot of weakness, but they have strength to learn and have unlimited skill to overcome mistake and perfect each other.
although sometimes they look and sound foolish and hard to be understand about what they real intention, they act like crazy and struggle to find a real way to regenerated Buddhism and found a real dream, sometimes also unintentionally caused wrong perception in other people.

In my life i never met this kind of organization who make so much foolish things and create benefit for other people in the same time.
Sometimes they try hard to give other people happiness but without realizing it they lost their own happiness. How can we met this kind of people who dare to sacrifice?
Maybe people are going to said " How stupid those person who want to give happiness, but they don't feel happy" but the funny things is although sometimes they are stress, but they never stop or give up. In their mind give people happiness is a must. What will you think if in this world there are 80 percent people who dare to sacrifice for other people's happiness?
Have you ever met a person who care so much about other people satisfaction than self? although so many things sound mistake, but they have a clear intention to find a better way to understand Dharma, they believe can be wiser someday and never fall in a same hole in the future, they have very bright future :)

That's why i think this organization is the most unperfect and perfect thing that i ever met .

they don't need me actually, what they need is an experience, change perception, adaptation , listening , accept weakness, don't waste too much energy in a wrong activity, appreciation, be universal, open heart, open minded, and more understanding about real Life, so we can spread Buddhism without boundaries and limitation.


In BLIA YAD i learned how to accept things that is not perfect as something which have HOPE.
It taught me to live happily in this messy world, and it teaches me that we can't die no matter we do mistake because we can directly get up and fix it up. We won't die because of it.


BLIA YAD doesn't need a smart people , as long they always dare to accept new things, and willing to guide so BLIA YAD will always live in this Humanistic life...


Of course BLIA YAD will break if they ask more from people but ignore to guide people with better way, ask for understanding but refuse to understand life, and the most important thing is losing their track for their real Dream, which give people Hope and Happiness.

About my study overseas, i believe BLIA YAD will understand about what is the best for me and for themselves. There will be a time when everything need a change. As long BLIA YAD always open the door and welcome a nomad ( perantau ) like me to home, BLIA YAD and myself will never feel missing or losing .



Always love and Stay strong

Rong Lee

Hai!
We met again :)
it seems that i am going to stick with you more often because i need to start studying how to do correct writing in academic. You know about my personalities right? a person who have no rule and always do everything with own style, just like my english writing right now. Writing a whole things without paid attention to grammar and spelling as long people understand that will be alright . LOL
And know i need to obey for every rule in order to get good score for my IELTS exam later, haha Sometimes in order to understand the world and obtain freedom, we need to adapt with the situation instead of asking people to adapt with us :)

Brother, tonight i realized something about " Gratitude  and Repay " after I read some sentences in Mater Hsing Yun 's Book, it said "


Master Hsing Yun's views about the love between parents and children , when the parents are young and helpful, the sons and daughters are going to fight to get her attention like the BASKET BALL , after a half old the sons and daughters will throw from each other and toying like VOLLEY BALL , and after parents are old and incapable, the daughter's and son began kicking them like SOCCER BALL.

I think that is right, because i unintentionally do this kind of things without realizing it, especially when i found my parents or maybe teacher, if they starting can't give any better solution or understanding, i will stop to do cooperation further. And now I feel i just being a Jerk .

As a person, if we want to be happy, the first thing we need to learn is know how to appreciate and repay people kindness, maybe there are a person who stubborn and won't listen to you, that will be alright as long we know how to yield and don't give up to give support and better way to repay all the kindness/teaching that we got.

Tonight i want to send my gratitude with everyone who had guide me and teach me about Life..
and I love and care with them like my own life, I wish all of us can learn how to be Wiser and Stronger to make a right understanding about life and change life to be a better place :)

I believe People will change someday :) ,know how to forgive is the most powerful strength to make life better.

Okay, i need to go to bed earlier because of the intensive class for my IELTS, which held from Monday to Friday from 09.00 to 13.30. Everytime when i didn't get enough sleep, it will affect my concentration and ruin my breakfast schedule.
Everyday at noon i will suffer hunger in the class because they didn't prepare you enough time and food eat inside. i need to study well Brother! at least for once time in a life i need to really focus in studying :D
right now i feel like i need to depend more on self to face everything.
Because in the future i will live and survive alone, without Parents and BLIA YAD who keep surrounding me.





GOOD LUCK!
LOVE ME &
STAY STRONG



Rong Lee

Hello my Brother, How do you do? .
in this month i am having a serious course to improve my English, and it is not as easy as i thought when i need to focus in every detail of the grammars, and writing format.
How are you doing Brother ? Do you feel good?. What is in your mind right now?. Are you Happy?

Me?
actually i am feeling great to have an adventure for myself, deciding to study overseas, have a chance to plan my own way of life. I am never have this kind of adrenaline to prepare myself for everything new.

Yeah, actually i am afraid for everything, but my faith push me to overcome it no matter what will happen later.
That is nice when you live by having a purpose in life, like i told you before brother that i want to see the outside world.

Brother, i like to tell you something about myself ,
This person have so many desires inside, This person have so many talents, this person have so many Dreams, and He is confusing himself right now , about which one that he needs to trow away or keep.
Inside his heart now, he likes to grab any chance to achieve all of it, but there are a depression when he realized that he is too late to play around.

actually i don't care about " Age " but there are a Dream which requires Young Age, so right now i plan the easiest way to be achieve as " START " and i will slowly follow what is in front of me, and of course i won't  throw any of my dream behind, but keep it safe for a while.

Thanks to my Mom, She really always be my side right now, although i know She is sad to let me go far away, but she keep concerning about my preparation and appreciate my decision. Right now i feel like spending my whole time with Her, i know She is the one who will suffer later because of me. I decided to have a tour to Europe with her on this August , just two of us. Because of that i have to skip my regular BLIA YAD Activity later on August, and of course i need to do permission to YADers, If only i can divide myself into two -.- .

Brother , there are one thing, which make me sad recently,
to be honest there are another person who i wish for guidance and support, but in the end i am a little bit sad, when this person misunderstanding , and gave me such a guilty feeling during this hardest moment , instead of warm welcome and understanding.

sometime it creates some negative mind for me to think of feeling like being rejected when i am not in much help anymore, but actually until now i tried to keep erasing that unnecessary mind, and i know that person is still care about me, yes i do.

There are a lot of things that i would like to share with this person, i discovered a lot of new things, and solutions that i believe it will help much, but i don't find any right moment to tell it, and haven't found any guts to tell because too many weakness will be revealed.

i know to let go something precious is very hard things to do..
Me also had been walked trough all of the dilemma, and emotion my own. In order to be stay strong and have a steady mind, i choose to act on the opposite way to make people let me go , so i can settle my feeling more easily.
but the fact is i am always grateful to be grow up in this lovely environment :)

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Brother i went to North Sumatra Zoo with friends on 17 June 2012, although the zoo is neglected and squalid , it was fun to have a new activity to do. During out tour around the zoo, i have kind of feeling, when i look at the animals' eyes is "Sad" and "Lonely".

I always describe myself as a Horse, Eagle, Tiger, Elephant, Deer as my personalities. but when i looked at the animals who trapped in a very narrow,squalid and empty cage, in the same time i thought what happen if i was they ? and it give me a very sad and lonely feeling.

i wish i can become Horse, which suppose to run as fast as i can and have a strong loyality, I with to become an eagle which suppose to fly higher without boundaries,
tiger which strong and self protection , Elephant which very kind and humble, Deer which very charismatic and respectful, all of them had lose their pride and couldn't anything but full of lonely and hopeless drawn in their eyes.

at the moment i think what will i do if i am inside that cage? What Happen if i have no freedom and being controlled for not having a dream ?

Right now i have my freedom to get my dream, why should i being afraid? why should i need to be hesitate and being controlled or confuse when i have so many friends to share, chance to see the world, chance to make a change.

It teaches me that sometime we like to make our own Cage,

We don't fly when we have capability to fly, but we blame everything because laziness, and have no dreams , and in the end we live pathetically .


At that time i told myself " Yes, i want to live my life till the fullest " " I don't want being in the cage"

i don't want to live because people gave you food and force you to do everything that you don't like to do as an elephant which gave me a short ride that time.

It was a very remarkable moment and thanks for all the animal which told me to be free and gave me high motivation to start my day again..



Love Me and Stay Strong
Rong Lee

Hey Brother... right now i watching the world from different angle than before, and i think i understand about this world much better :)

I understand more about the people who fight and survive to be happy...
i found some people who teach me a lot of things and kind of inspiring me :)

I understand a bit about how to differentiate between childish and mature , Mature person always appreciate people who support, care, even criticize in a very hard way to be better person...
Mature person didn't being afraid or shame if the weakness being exposed, they face it, admit it, and change it with a bright eyes.. always found a way to overcome everything back to well.
they are not protective but they are strong and stable :)

you know me right? i am a boy who live surrounding by religion almost 10 years..being activist and dream with Buddhist organization..

I did permission with Buddha about the time i will erase him from my mind and find him back someday...

what for ?

because i want to understand world more better :) yeah, to tell you the truth.. listening to Dharma everyday, it didn't always mean you are wiser..there are a time when you will know that what you understand is not good enough so you need to stop for a while

why? because people tend to talk with own point of view :) people talk about what they don't like and what they like , and when people talk like this, it makes me have no much attention to listen anymore if we are talking about religion :)


that's why Buddha told us, not to always trust what had been said, had been written down :)
when i understand about His word above, i trust HIM and then i dare to erase him from my mind..
Why ? because i don't want to live my life by following what people told you this is right this is wrong...
i want to live by looking and understand the truth by my own selves.

and i know that is impossible for Buddha getting angry because i have a tough not to put him in my mind :)


what i follow is Kindness not Buddha, Jesus or Allah 

BUDDHA IS MY FRIEND , that is what i always think :)
Friend suppose to support and trust each other like :)

Maybe everyone keep questioning " Why Friends ?" " Not Teacher or God ?"

Teacher or God is going to get Mad with you and punish you if you disobey, or kind of didn't pay full attention to He/She. They wish to own you and sometimes think you are bad because you disobey.

Friend is someone you can't own and control, they are not by your side because you pay them fee,
you can't complain about them, accept them, tolerate them , place you share even if they don't care ,
trust them, and dare to let go  " :)


same with if we pray the GOD.. praying everyday doesn't make you happy, For me.. it's only to teach you how to stop for a while to look around and appreciate your life more :) and it's good of course,
but we all need ACT  


right know i think i understand more about people :) i stand in different boat and note all my weakness and strength :)

so much emotional in one people, all have their reason to live, to dream :)
there are even have no time for you to judge who is wrong who is right, what is wrong and what is right,


for me right now, if there are people said that He/ She is " RIGHT " , i only can smile..

Us people... make sure to have a capability to accept "Input of weakness  " from people

Your Dream will turn to ash is you stop to appreciate and overcome your weakness
:)


right now i understand about what change in myself
the first one is my past is " what makes you happy , finding own self, finding own dream , protecting what yours"
right now is about " ACT and understanding more"

I understand know how important is " TIME "

by the time passing i found everything change, everyone have their own reason to life and no exceptional..
even the world is changing, but what the worse is when you find yourselves wasting your time by doing a same mistake, support what even didn't have a clear vision and mission , learn from who even can't overcome weakness

but until now, i feel grateful to have so much SPIRIT, Simple and innocence Friends and environment, that creates a habit to following your Heart and be Happy . :)

Teacher who taught me always being Justice, and Honest .
Really Thank you from all my heart.

People will usually said other people had Changed but infact they didn't realize that everyone change including own self 

all need to change , of course people who don't know how to change never learn :)

When i understand more, it teachs me how to accept people more :)
i understand more that people have no right to say what is wrong and what is right :)
and i found i have a better life,  especially when i realize i have a clear vision about who i want to be and fight for it, i feel i am getting younger and energize :)

right now i really care and understand how important is TIME :)
REMEMBER RONG  :

THERE ARE ALWAYS PEOPLE WHO TELL YOU CAN'T AND IMPOSSIBLE , WHAT YOU WANT TO HAVE GO AND GET IT... IT'S NEVER TOO LATE, because sometimes LATE IS BETTER than too fast :)



STAY STRONG
and Love Me

Rong Lee

today is Saturday..and it such a very bad day for me -.-

I suppose to enjoy my day at home and going to gym for refreshing today,
but it ends to carving for Tom Yam seafood fried rice at Sun Plaza,

and then my relaxing day turn to bad day when i realized i lost my bike's key, i went around the mall, trying to remind where i put the key, and i really cant find it, i keep visiting place that i went and asking for the key but  i found nothing..

this is very tiring, and this Damn cellphone " Black berry ' always give me no good .
I realized that black berry always gave me bad news such as low signal, searching for network, pending and Running out of battery in a urgent situation -.-

i realized that black berry doesn't suit me, because i didn't use it for chatting..

today i kinda like having running man show, walking around sun and searching for my key alone without cellphone ..

Hello Brother.. :)

it such a very very long time...i didn't share everything i feel with you..
there are a lot of things happen in my Day..
but that is not as simple as i share with you before,

for this long time  i plan not to visit you and write my story, actually i do it on purpose.

maybe you are asking me why.. yeah that because
for this whole time what i did is
fighting with my own self , i messed up, i stand, i fall, i try ,i reject, i accept, i change, i slap my face, i arguing, i choose, I'm hiding, i keep teaching myself to let go and what i love for my dream,
I am so mad with myself, i wish to fly high but i haven't even jump for it,
i dump all my previous success,
 i challenge myself to be a new person and looking for a better life, i did all of this since i realize that i can't remain the same and i have nothing but only faith and Dream.
i did this because i realize i haven't try hard enough for my Dream :)

I called myself the most foolish person in the world...
this recently i did something that i know what I'm not supposed to do,
i break my own rule,
i show unperfectly of my side,
maybe who knows i disappoint people around me and i even didn't care :)

right now i am being the most weakest person who even can't keep his own words, promises :)

I am asking my self actually why i did this?
this is what i called i am navigating, i keep fight the good side of me to show people and change my mind that i am not perfect,so that i can always remind myself that there still a lot things for me to learn and to achieve

There are a lot of lack in myself that i realize this recently and make me feel like i love for being quiet, i need a feeling of down to strike back, i need a lot desperate to find my way.
so i unintentionally did all the foolish things, i messed up, to find my hope :)

haha i even feel funny for myself when i said i messed up to find my hope :)
yeah it's a kind of feeling where you know there will be problem, or mistake but you don't have any spirit and will to change it.. this is me now..
this is the first time i becoming like this..
i  keep wondering and i think the reason is maybe my inner self searching for what i love to do now..
struggle to learn a new things, and already in a top of the mountain which like to explore a new mountain

i don't know if right turning bad or better, but what i know, at least I'm still know what is bad and what is good, there will be okay :)

but when you ask me about regret for doing and acting like this, my answer is " NO "

the reason is because i don't want to show people that i am perfect, but infact myself is lacking a lot of thing
i don't want to become this kind of person, maybe i just realize that sometimes i like to show people that i am perfect.

being praise, being respect, thats all what i always want..
yeah that is what i always want, maybe not only me, but all the human being wish to be accepted in this life.

But this recently i know that the most important things is  about how can we respect our own selves.
Name, Praise, Status it makes you weaker if you keep holding it..


But right now, i am Happy because i have a bigger courage to achieve my dream, :) and now i know what i like to do :)
I know you are curious about what is my Dream right ?:)

right now..
i even don't afraid for being weak, and big Loser.
 I really want to be new person who have capability to learn new things, and look things for another side.

Right now Rong Lee that you know for this long time, is not remain the same anymore,
 Rong Lee that you know is the one who always share happiness with his friends, tell a lot of motivation story,
Rong Lee that you know before always tell you to stand up, don't give up, and be true...

But right now Rong Lee that you know is the one who will remain silent and talk less.
Rong lee that aim for something bigger than only share , and help.

Rong lee who dare to let go. and wish to fly higher and have no regrets.

but there are one things that i didn't change , that is " Good heart "

I really took a lot of time to do navigating, and i like to know what i will found ..
Born To be Free..
I know if i didn't do it now..then i will never make it happen ..

This is the time where i am going to prove that i am strong as i said before :)


Always Stay strong
Rong Lee

hai Brother! it such a very very long time not to talk with you .. and i feel so bad about that :) it seems this recently i am not often talking for myself like previously...

How are you doing?
Tonight  i would like to introduce you my new friend..
This guy is amazing..he understand about what i feel, he help me to see this world beautifully..
LOL

okay this is my story...
Nice to meet you Mr 550D..

I am happy to met with this guy, it brings back my spirit to be creative which i'm almost lose because of my daily working activity..
I lose my time in dreaming lately...
to be honest brother... i think i lose my Spirit, and Soul lately
yeah i am messed up, i dont know who i am...and searching for own light despite of giving a light to anybody lately..
aaaaaa.... i don't know why...
i am trying to search that feeling again, but it's kind of difficult, and my heart told me not to return back again but i need to keep walking forward..

thats maybe because i am not as free as in the past again..

right now, a lot of things to be considered especially " AGE " and " PRIDE "

you know.., sebenarnya saya tidak merasa nyaman dengan kehidupanku sekarang, haha tidak ada kebebasan, dimana yang harus saya lakukan adalah suatu keharusan yang harus ditempuh oleh seorang laki laki. kadang-kadang saya merasa saya tiba-tiba menjadi seorang penakut karena terus dikhawatirkan oleh masa depan yang belum pasti, tetapi saya bertekad dimana saya harus belajar melakukan apa yang tidak saya senangi, dan belajar membuatnya menjadi sesuatu yang menyenangkan.
Seperti yang pernah saya utarakan di blog sebelumnya "Apakah Saya Sekuat Yang Saya kira ?"
walaupun kadang- kadang aku sangat merindukan masa - masa sebelumnya, dimana saya bebas berkreativitas,bermimpi dan melakukan hal hal baru.haha

tadi sore saya berkumpul melakukan kegiatan latihan menari, saya menemukan diriku sering tertinggal dan disaat itu saya berpikir " saya merasa kreativitas ku menjadi semakin menurun "
Saya sangat iri melihat teman-temanku yang memiliki banyak kesempatan seperti diriku dulu, begitu bebas melakukan apa yang mereka sukai...
Saya juga merasakan dalam kegiatan lainnya dimana saya hanya dapat memberikan kemampuan ku 30 %, padahal sebelumnya saya bisa memberikan 100 %.. saya tidak tahu apakah ini adalah kemunduran atau kemajuan untukku, namun di dalam hatiku saya tidak merasa kecewa atau menyesal , karena saya tahu sekarang adalah waktunya saya mencoba hal hal baru, dan memberikan kesempatan kepada orang lain untuk melanjutkan kebahagiaan saya.
Namun sekarang saya hanya lebih bisa memberi dukungan dari belakang, tidak terus berada di depan lagi..

kalau bicara tentang hobby , Hal satu satunya yang tidak mundul adalah " Nyanyianku " LOL
karena itu adalah hal yang paling mudah dilakukan, saya bisa menyanyi di kamar mandi, sebelum tidur atau sewaktu mengendarai kendaraanku haha tidak memerlukan waktu khusus, tidak memerlukan biaya dan tidak perlu terburu - buru LOL

Namun sekarang saya terus terus berkata kepada diriku " BRING BACK MY DREAM !!"
Walaupun saya disibukkan kepentingan masa depan dan harus mengorbankan masa masa sekarang.
tetapi impianku tidak akan pernah hilang....( Yes i do )

saya hanya perlu lebih kuat supaya mampu menjaga lebih banyak hal hal yang kucintai...saya akan menjadi lebih kuat dan lebih bijaksana setelah melewati latihan latihan ini...SEMANGAT!!

Seperti kalimat di Filim SPIDERMAN 1 , dimana ayah Peter Parker berkata " Semakin besar kekuatan yang kamu miliki, Semakin besar juga tanggung jawab yang akan kamu miliki "


saya sangat bersyukur sekali bertemu dengan sahabat kecilku nan mahal ini! LOL
berkat dia saya kembali bisa berkreativitas dan tetap dapat melihat hal hal indah di dunia ini...

Karena sewaktu saya bertemu dengannya dan menemukan semangat berimajinasiku kembali, sayapun memberinya satu nama yaitu " SEMANGAT "
nah ini dia foto foto pertama yang dihasilkan diriku dan semangat





Title : - My New Simple Friend -
Model : Ilham Sentoso
seorang photographer yang bermain dengan sebatang pensil

Nah dia teman yang baru saya kenal karena photography, dia banyak mengajariku pengalaman-pengalamannya tentang photography, jadi pas ketemu saya jepret dia..haha.

Jujur saja kawan..saya tidak pernah mempunyai teman baru yang lebih senior dari saya lebih dari 15 tahun atau lebih ( nebak )LOL. Namun saya senang dapat diterima oleh orang yang lebih senor dan dapat saling berbagi pengalaman dan terbuka, saya dapat melihat dunia dari sisi yang berbeda lagi.



Title : - Learning -

Nah let me introduce you one of my friend yang jarang aku ceritakan ke kamu, haha Makmur Rimba..

dari foto ini menceritakan seorang photographer yang sedang belajar memotret secara berbeda










Nah foto ini selalu buat saya penasaran dan mengambil perhatianku, ada sesuatu yang unik dan tidak unik didalam foto ini haha
kelihatan sangat sakral, aneh tapi ada cerita cerita yang bisa disiratkan haha