Hey...
this recently i got a lot of feeling and story to share..
but i had been busy for a whole day..
i guess.. i miss it to write the feeling in this blog..
aaa...

writing it right now..seems not fresh enough because it passed already..
haha

it's okay..
today i am Happy .. brother..haha

i just changed my face book shout Out to
yeah..The Office and studio already done..
tomorrow is the day for opening..haha

you know.. last 2 days.. when i watched the Board Name of the Studio

this feeling feel so Grateful.... Proud....Beautiful..


yeah... if this tears can come out..maybe it will..
but its not..haha
in my heart said " aa.. i should have been cry in this moment "
but the worker will think me crazy hahaha

yeah tomorrow is the day..
the new story will begin for BLIA YAD Indonesia..

you know..this is the last year for me to becoming President in BLIA YAD..
at least all my vision starting accomplished..( oh yeahhh )
this place..
this story i wish will always  remain in everyone's heart..
every people that i loved including myself..

yeah talking about people change..
yeah.. i know people have their own way to Happiness...
we can't push , but only can support...
at least i wished for them who had seen this Studio finally come to us..
I wish everybody always remember to 
Appreciate Life, Stay true,Stay Happy, Life good, and Stay strong..

aa...
i am tired today.. but excited  haha

today i installed a new Loudspeaker and Sound system inside the Studio..
i played the music..
and i can see a Real Studio picture in my mind..( oh yeahh )
hahaha

This place will be nice..

yaa i really wish to turn high full the Volume and let the music pump out...
to let everybody know..

Hey !! Our Little Dream Comes True..


For Everybody.. who really hand in hand together...
i like to say..Finally it come! haha

I wish this Studio.. will always remind us..
    this is the beautiful things that ever exist in our life....

from bottom of my heart..
i feel Successed as a person..

yeah.. i don't have house,
i don't have car, i don't have a lot of money..

but in this situation..
in this moment..
today..
right now..

I feel i am the succession person ..

That is not.. feeling of Falling in Love..
That is not.. being praised...
That is not.. Being Recognized..
That is not being President..
That is not..get Money...
That is not doing traveling..

The feeling i like the most is.. " Proud "

it kind of  feel you are so satisfied.. like you have no regret..
you feel " aaa beautiful "
When like something telling inside you..
" you are Great " " really really Great" " you have no reason to afraid now" " Go Go.. you had written a good story "
" you even don't afraid when Die is come to you.." " nothing can ruin your life or take anything from you " you just Feel " I am Here! "..
 you feel like this earth , sky..sun..everything that invisible or visible is smiling at you.."

aa Life is Beautiful..

tomorrow is open house for the studio...
but we don't make a Great and big party..
just a simple with committee and friend..

yeah we didn't pump out to outer world..that " WE DID IT " we didn't want to show it.. to all people..

but we just want to tell ourselves..and remain ourselves..

aa.. i almost cry..haha

Damn Brother, disturbing me to write this blog...

okay then..
i will tell you the next story tomorrow..
Promise...



Love Me ...
Rong Lee

long time no write some blog..
it seems this is sick season..
all desease attacking people..and i am the one of it haha

this afternoon i went to office like ussually..
now i can said it is already 75 % near to finish..

aa feel nice, seeing it slowly finish..
everybody seems exited, but in my heart said, this is just a beginning..

some people said you are the lucky man..
yeah i think you are really do lucky..
you got a lot of friends, all of them is lovely, unique, some is troubelsome..but in return they all love you..and you love them..
Family is supporting, don't ask too much..sometimes troubelsome, sometime lovely and sometimes funny haha



yesterday you met your old friend, she said you always happy... and you told them
                                         " Life should be happy "

yeah i think you are right..

in this Life..everybody searching a Happiness, but they don't know what is the Happiness..
no body can explain..

i met a lot of my old friend.. and i memorize all question that will come out from their mouth...

" Hey , How are You? "
" Wow you are taller "
"you need to gain weight" (  wew )
" are you having university?"
" What Subject? "


this question always come out in the first list..

everytime people ask about this.. almost i can sense they are having stress and unhappy..
when people discussing what is your Job ?
they started uneasy to tell..
like hiding something..haha

i always smile..you know..
one school have 2000 students let say..
and after graduated all of them is doing racing in finding job and have status..
that is what people do in this era..
2000 students rushing find job..every year have 2000 Students graduated from all school..
and all of them racing wish to get status and job as soon as possible..
and the competition is begin..
so when someday they met their old friend they got some status, than being " Unemployed " 
( aa it is ashame )


everytime my friend discuss about " Job "

yeah they answered it.." i am teaching", or whatelse..
but i found stress in their eyes..


when they got no job, they are stress, but when they got job, they also stress..
and suddenly i found " aaa, this because people always keep doing comparing and complaining "

When other people have something " I Want !!"
sometimes i think why we need to be so rush? and make self pain..

a lot of people told me " I am so Lucky "
yeah..i feel do..
but i don't think that as my Lucky actually..
i just put down my Ego, and try to break the rule..
when everybody run in a one road and it stuck..
i try to take another road..although it is longer..

When uncountable people think need to hardwork to get success..
i think on how to enjoy..
When people angry..mad..they sad..they cry..they hurt..they fight..they jump here jump there..
all people aiming for one thing..
when everybody so busy..so stress,desperate
i am standing on middle of them
i am looking around..


When people graduated, i am not graduated..
When people said Study to get score..
i am study to get something..


a lot of people told me " Siao Kia " ( Crazy )
but i choose to stop study but keep doing my things..

When people ask me to write exactly the same with what he/she said..
i wrote everything with my own style..

When people mad and beg for score, i just try to find the right reason..

i am not telling people to follow this habit haha
for me..people need to do what they have today..
use everything that they have, improve everything that they have..
accept everything that come for them..
and it will lead us to where we go..
we just control today..why we need to stress because of the future that you can't see..


sometimes i think why we need to follow other people,?


some people tell me i am the lucky man..
What is lucky actually?
how can we measured lucky?
they said some people need to study so hard, but you? just having fun!
but for me..aa how lucky are they, got such a dilligent habit skill in their blood..

When people said some of them need to work hard to help his father..but you is enjoying..decide what to do and what is not..no body rush you..
but for me.. " aa how lucky are they..got a situation and condition which burst his courage and guts "


some people ever said..: "Hey you got a lot of Fans, Why have no girl friend ?"
sometime i ask myself " is that important? "


when i asked back..
"how about you?"

yeah some who had is happy..

smile and get blush on face..said " Go Get One ! "

for them who have none..
try to get another topic..

hahaha..


everybody rushing in finding girl friend and get married soon..
Job and Married, people always think more soon is more good..

all is really doing competition..

i just found something.. sometimes we can't decide which is right and which is wrong..

I Believe all people have their own way to be Happy..
and i have mine..

haha

Good night..

Stay True
Rong lee

today when i was returned from Gym, around 18.00,
like usually i forgot to take my key, and i call inside home to trow me the key from upstair..

i got it and i trying to open my door..

and my key is broken during opening the door..
aa Damn!

i make a call again to ask them to open the door for me..
at that moment i heard some voice..

hey i met the Lost Kitten ( it's still Alivee haha)
and stay at my neighbour door,the place where i put them yesterday..

the blind one is still keep crying hungry..

aaa.. i looked at them, i wonder if the kittens still recognized me..
i touched the blind one..and the not blind kitten is running away.( Stupid cat )

i touched the blind one and it silent directly..i talked in my heart " how are you doing? do you still remember me?"
like the cat can answer me : YES SIR ! ( Huahaha)

i don't do speaking ..i just using Telepathy hahaha
i don't want people think i am crazy..talking alone in front at people door..


i can't stay longer, because i heard someone is opening door..
so i directly stand at my door ..the lady is come out..
She knows there are a cats..
but they seems no care..the lady make sure the kittens not enter her house..
" hush hush"

i stand for a while, waiting for my Daddy to open the door for me..
at that time i make sure the lady didn't harm the Kittens..and she does not..

my dad is coming and i am going inside..

i am quite happy to see the Lost Kittens survive,
i went to my kitchen and i found Fish ( Ikan Kecap )
i took the head one..
and wish to feed them..

i am waiting for my father back to his room..
and then i went out again..
i opened the door, and i saw a man in a car is waiting to fetch my neighbour..

i choose to wait until the car is go..
not for a while..the man is coming out..

" Husshh Husshh"
haha the man found the kittens, climbed at his car..


i just keep seeing, and act like wating for someone infront my door..
i can't see clearly which kitten that climb at his car, because it was starting dark..around 18.30 i think..


the lady came out..
i wait quite long..around 3 minutes..
and the car finally gone..

after make sure the place is safe from people i am starting to visit the kittens..

i was shocked..
The Lady had put some food for it..
the two kittens keep eating and ignoring me..
hahaha

aa...i think my fish is useless..
i just put beside them and i back to my home..

aa it is so relieve..
i wonder they are just going to be safe..
since now..

aa good day  i think..


after the day..
Thursday,30 March 2010

i can't find the kittens anymore, i wait for blind one's voice, but now i can't hear anything, maybe they going some where...
and found another place better to stay....
in my mind...

"aaa if we still have faith, we are going to met again someday.."


Stay Strong..and have Good Life..
( people will laugh at me if found myself keep concerning and discussing about cutie kitty Hahaha)


i choose not to focus on what happened lately, i think i can't focus on some kind what i said mystic..
because               past is past..Today is today..
and now we just being ourselves and doing what we need to do now..
so keep being Reality, and wake up from Dreaming..
you will get what you do today, Like Buddha called " Karma "

let this self just know that anywhere, anyplace, we always have somebody who are keep watching us.. and protect us..
even something that you can't see from the past..

it make me believe, anybody and everything that we are going to met since today..and since we are born..
All is our part of story from our previous life..

haha
Cool Huh?so make sure to greet them well during this journey....





Stay Strong..
Rong Lee

Today you can said i am weird..
today people can said i am crazy and mad..

I don't how to describe what i feel..
but my heart feel weird!
i don't know is this cool..
or something i need to concern..

From morning since i woke up..
i just doing things like usually, cooking noodle for breakfast..
bathing and preparing for Sunday class..

suddenly My friend Suryanto, called me said..
"Hoi.. we need to come on 8.30 a.m at temple.."
I replied " What? When you guys said to me that i need to come 8.30, "
Suryanto : " we usually like this "
Me :  ( i never being told like that...aa he is joking ) okay okay..

suddenly i am on the way to temple by walking, and Nova Called " President, where are you? it's already at 09.00"
( I looked at my time, it its 08.35)
i replied "is that today our Fa Qi ( chanting ) group need to gather early?
Nova : " erhmm.. ( She is confuse ), no.. erm  ( she think i was mad with him )
Me : okay.. i reached already ..( aaa Suryanto is joking around )

in the middle destination, suddenly one Old Man Called to me " Hey lu ane tua han liao a..ane kuan khi lu..
ho liao a lu..(Hey..you have grow so big and tall, so great )
i just smiling.."haha Yes"
Old Man : " You stay at back there right?"
Me : Yes Sir..
Old Man : wow so good..

and i just pass him..

i wonder who is this Old man..??
i even never know him...
aa..maybe i look like someone..haha

after i reached temple, i just realized that my time is being slow..
and i asked my other friends Juliana kim, what time is now?
Juliana :" 08.55" but when asking Suryanto , he said "you ontime at 08.45."

Jessi said " Oh yeah..it is 08.50 already"
aa why all time is different..

yeah i being late at the last..

when doing chanting..as Wei Nuo ( Singer )

I still realized the third lamp from altar was not light on..( maybe got some problem with the lamp)
when i start to sing.. it seems i only hear my own voice.. so clear..( wow the loudspeaker turn high volume today ) and so good.
every breath.. every low tune i realize it..
i sang it very slow, like i enjoy it a lot..


yeah not too many people coming today, because of Mourning day ( Cheng Beng ), it's kind of the day for respecting parents who passed away..


We listened about speaker "Miss Yulia Halim " talk about " Mother's Love " and some part of "Reincarnation from people who connected with us"
when she ask about what things that your mother ever do to you and make you felt touch?
i am not ever think about the answer, but when i suddenly had been asked, i don't know why i answered it correctly as my pass regret feeling..

my Friend asking me " from where you search that story?"

after Miss Yulia do speaking, i am starting to give information..
and when i doing this.. i really speak like..this time is mine..
i talked until i forgot we still have some game to go..
and i talk out of my time for too long...

My Friend Riki said to me: are you doing Speaker?
i just laugh haha but it seems feel satisfied feeling..

this morning i just feel like doing anything..
it just like my DAY..

after Sunday class ending, we all feel so comfortable, got a lot of time, no extracurricular..
and going to Sun Plaza, having lunch..

because too thirsty, i go to buy some coffee in one stand..
and i found how come they sell one coffee blended for 20.000IDR in that tiny stand and not famous one?
"this business going crazy", i think..
but i like to try it..whether see what is special for the coffee..
i am starting asking the Keeper " Wow drink right here is expensive right? "
Keeper : ( just smiling )
Me : What make it special? what kind of coffee did you use?

but the keeper can't answer anything ...( Aaa are you in pain )
I see she just got one simple machines, and  i can't find any brand of the coffee..

even the keeper don't know anything about her own coffee...( Wrong place to visit, i think)

after having lunch we start going to Cemara Asri,
starting this time i feel something weird in me..
we are going to what they called " Bundaran " to have some snack,
when visiting the food stand, looking around...

you know it kinds of feeling where there are someone who talking with you said inside you " What place is this "
and it feels like you are not in real world..
i am starting look around, people, like i enjoy it a lot..
this place is like Festival.. Cheap and Many things to taste..( yeah the truth is i ever came to this place for 10 times i think, but today i just feel this place is new..)
after that we were sitting and enjoying our food..  looking at view of dirty lake, we can see flamingo flying, swimming..



We are keep asking " how come there are so many flamingo here?
Why it didn't fly to anywhere.. just stay here..?"

haha
after having enough, we starting go to my friend's house,
his name is Tanaka,
we plan to go there just for playing with his dog, golden retriever..
it name is " Marker "
we met his father, his father walking slowly at our places, and suddenly join us without saying anything, he just come and playing the show with marker, like, " Sitting ", "Shake Hand " and we all looked at him..
he didn't ask anything like " Where are you guys have been? or maybe " hey", but he just smiling..
like moving something, Planting, watering, look at us..walk again...( kinda Cool huh? haha)

i realized we even don't have chance to say respect " Hello Sir "

we don't know after playing outside, we starting enter his house..
and Tanaka asked me " wanna take a bath ? "
Me : Yeap..

this weird moment starting begin..
when i enter his house, i feel weird ( not Ghost ... Dude!)
the moment i walk, and enter his guest room, i just feel i know i am walking there, looking around..putting my stuff..like something dream..this feeling appears again like as in " Bundaran "


when i starting take off all my cloth and open the shower..
this mind starting to think " what am i doing here.. having bath in friend house, without planning and not in the time?"" Hah just not like myself"

yeah i keep taking bath..
until finish i am still looking around..hmm this room size, shape of shower, the sachet of  BIORE man on the floor which opened half..

" i asking myself why they need to put the sachet on the floor, nearing with the place where we take shower..it can make water flow inside the sachet.."

after finish yeah i came out..and hanging around with my friends..
they are playing card, and laptop...

Card with something they called " Flash, Boom , Pair"
they taught me.. but i still do not know how to memorize the rule..
i found it boring..and i starting doing anything..
see picture in the room, and found some famous book , with title " Born Again " i ever see this book but never read it..

yeah i lay down on his expensive cough and i found myself tired and comfort to sleep..
but i read the book..
and i found this weird feeling in my heart..
it said..
" Hey i ever feel like this, sometimes ", "something the story  in this book it ever happened and become a question since i was small until today, but i never focus on it"


the book said about being reincarnation, they found that some who are died and reincarnation become new person but still have a same behavior , talent and point of view..

since they born sometimes they found this person got the talent to do debate, speaker, and talk like a politic.
and they found that this person have same characteristic and this person feel he/she got someone called past moment when he /she meet or being in some place like we usually called it Fate from the past..

some of them found himself as a reincarnation from the king in one country, where he reincarnation with a behavior never want  to bow or low down his head..
he have feeling with some object like he is so like, and kind of have a link to his past..
the book told a lot story,
after read this book my self automatically asked " Who am I at the Past?"
this question honestly just wasting time, but my heart why can be moved?
When i read this book i got weird feeling like  "I often  got this feeling "
a weird question i linked to my past when i childhood, hmm..

but i can't write down here, it is too long..

at that moment, i see Tanaka's father is also walking around, seeing us playing..
and i just keep laying down with the book.
in my tough we even didn't look at his father..
everybody just enjoying their talking, playing, and i am reading...( We are damn Phai Kia  ( bad attitude ))
his father turn on the light..for us..without talking..( silent but care  haha )
and walk again..


" aa i am sleeping.."
"hey lets get out and find some dinner"

but the others keep joking around, and the men enjoying their card..( aa no chance to stop them )
i was starting going to sleep for a while
i don't know  i was slept or not, in a half sleep sometimes i opened my eyes for a while and i can see upstairs, his parents..is opening room door, and i bet they can see i am sleeping at the cough from upstairs..

until one time i begin to wake up, and starting disturb the man playing card
" Hoi Lets stop "


everybody seems already want to stop, but
one of my friend Vincent he keeps being stubborn to keep playing as long as they can..
and everybody seems got affected also..( aa this boy always don't know when to stop playing )

until around 20.00
we finally choose to have dinner...
all is full because sunday night..
and finally we found at the deeper shop...
look cheap and fast..
okay...

to be honest..
this place really SUCKKKK!!!

i ordered Fried Rice Special...( hmm it seems not expensive one )
because at the picture seems nothing special,

but when came out..
you know what is the price ??

it is damn 25000  IDR
" WhatT???!!! "

is this place kopitiam or Restaurant?

wew,i take down my emotion, but honestly i angry inside, i talked loudly, when i see the Boss near with my table
" Waa this can kill People slowly...
one plate of Simple Fried Rice is Rp 25000...
is this restaurant? and we can't read any price inside the menu...
it really trying to kill customer"

We talked about Koki Sunda " we ate right there only 40.000 IDR for such a great amount of food.."
so mad..and i wish the boss know what people feel..

and to perfect my bad luck is, i also ordered "Fried shrimp" , and it haven't served after i finishing that Damn Special Fried Rice..
until everybody finish their food, the lady come out..
" Brother..sorry, we need to wait for a while for the shrimp..it almost done "
i really do want to be mad " but this feeling said.. aaa just accept it.."

when it comes out, no chilly, sauce, how can i eat this shrimp?
aa this place is suck..
until another lady asking for money :" Brother, the money" ( what kind of attitude is that ? like bandit )
"Can i have the sauce first please? how i can eat this without any sauce?"

Lady : "we don't have any sauce for this shrimp, "( is this stand of food, never served Fried Shrimp before ?, ketchup sauce without shrimp is like a food without water ,aa wrong place..)
"How much is the price?"

The Lady : " 25000 IDR"

wew, i spend 50.000 for such a food..that don't have any quality..
Really bad day i think..

My friends all is laughing...
and i told them..
"just assume i am doing donation tonight, past life maybe i ever owe them.."


( i damn so Patient this night)
Suddenly i think rather than i eat this stuff, with such emotional, it's better i packed it and plan to give it to someone who got no food on the street..so i don't need to think i had been robbed in that restaurant tonight..


we are going home...walking to the car, and suddenly 3 cats is coming ( mother and 2 kittens)
One of my friends said " Wow How Cute "
and some other friend said " don't too close.. it will follow you later"


so we enter the car, and on the way to home, but who knows we heard cat voice" Miao Miao"
until middle of road we going down to check, and we found 2 kitten is hiding below the car..
Me and my friend Vincent..help that 2 kittens
one kitten can't open it's eyes..
i hug it suddenly without care of it dirty body ..
( hey i am wearing new Cloth )
i washed it's eyes...
but it still can't open..
i do anything without thinking..just not like myself before..
i talked like i know it well.." hey..why you can't open your eyes"
i keep washing it's eyes, until we bring it inside car, wish to bring it somewhere safe..

ya.. i got bite and scar lot in my hand..but i keep hold it,
until i gave them my expensive Shrimp ..

"oh yeah..you got lucky for this food than some beggar on the road..that i wish to give "

along the road, i feel like i am talking alone..with this blind cat..
until reached my home, and put him infront my neighbor home, and put all the shrimp with them..

you know  what, a whole night after this things happened, i am quiet enough...

this heart i don't know why it seems like feel so thankful, a feeling of care..and sad..
i feel, i ever met with this kitten " but when?"

i am starting sit infront my notebook, and remind myself about what happened today..

and it seems inside me said, today is a weird day, it like got something to tell me..
something that i called " reincarnation and the fate from the past life "
( yeah..people can laugh at me now)

the kittens... i got some mysterious feeling, i don't know why this feeling said i know them, something got connected with myself...i feel like, in the past i ever owe them something, something i care

aa the one who listen to this story will thing i am crazy,
i am also said, am i too tired, and get obsession with the book i read in Tanaka's House..?

but in a whole life, this things is never happened..
i am the person who always listen to my heart..and believe what my heart said..
this "Great  heart" always show me something real..
he told me anything if something is going wrong, something is going right ..

and now it told me that " I know this Kitten, especially " blinded one."

aa i told this story directly to my friend..
but i just found myself is weird..

so i choose to quiet, and keep this story alone, for something that i need to remember..
some Mysterious part of my story..

people can believe or not to believe it..

today i just feel everything after i met the Kittens..  
( how can the blind one can climb inside the car machines? )
i feel today i talked, act, behave like in a Dream..
this body like waiting for something, thinking like this time is stopping for me..

a weird day..
wow.. i finished this blog for 3 days..
because it is too long...
and i need to continue it half by half..


For what happened tonight..
" it was a great experience i got, it said to me..that we live here, we born here,
We exist because we have something to do..

something that you can't see..

my heart say yes..
Stay cool..
Rong Lee

This Morning, i read some note from my friends in face book, he write a lot about Dalai Lama's student Teaching..name Tsem Tulku

the title is " Be Yourselves"

and it starting make my mind think crazily to understand..because the way he thinks and the way i think different to each other..

aa What a SIN day ( hari yang berdosa )
he recognized as a wise person,but after read that.. the word at that note, not suit with mine..
so actually am i okay?

haha

the note said about this..
Being yourself can be very difficult at first because some people lead you to believe you can't be yourself. Solution: DON'T LISTEN TO THEM. You may not be what other people want you to be if you are yourself, but that's their problem, not yours. Be yourself and then others will come to you.

i don't know why i against this statement, like i ever said in my previous blog, " the sentence of " Just Be Yourselves " will be good if only people know how to Change..

because so far i see a lot of people who keep this sentence seems " Uncare,Lonely, Stubborn ,give up,  fall in a same problem, and desperate"


Putting all your energy into being a projection is like a movie. It has to end. So just be yourself and better. When people criticise you for being different, it's because they dare not be themselves. Forgive those that criticize you because you're not the problem. They can't accept themselves and they are suffering.




"I tried to be like you, but I couldn't because I'm not. I have to be me. If being me offends you, then you have to find yourself first before you can accept me. "~ Tsem Tulku

I usually do change if i found careless,bad habit and offends people around me..because i am not perfect..
I do learn from people..something is not good, i change it..
some thing is good i improve it..
how can i be happy if my existence keep disturbing other people?


"The first time when I was being  told  that I didn't look good, "I was like really?" I realize now, I didn't accept me at that time." ~ Tsem Tulku


Why i don't want to improve if i got a chance?and when i still have people around me care a lot, why i don't listen to them?

reading this note..it brings a lot of question mark in my mind that unsatisfied me..
Live by ignoring each other seem we are afraid and just keep running a way..
for me" being yourselves" means we Love ourselves..and know how to control this body and mind..it not means hiding talk with own selves,and do ignoring..
but we walk forward we look at people and no matter what people said..
if we can become a "Real Me" we are going to know what things is right what things is good,

Being "Real Me" not means..this live is only mine.
and we don't care how to help and give..
Why we got ears? because we need to listen what is good..and know what is bad..
So why we need to pretend not to listen, when we really do have ears?

if i am being like that.. i just feel this life is empty and Boring

aaaa am i got too much sin  now? haha
is my thinking way is wrong? and curse people mind?


from the beginning i feel wrong to write this blog.. you know..it seems like i stab people reputation haha

but suddenly i read something in that note..Tsem Tulku said
"I'm sorry that I don't look, talk, and act like you. But I have no choice but TO BE ME. I didn't start out life trying to be different. I just I am." ~ Tsem Tulku 

they got their own ways to be happy..

so we have no hurt feeling at all.. ( Oh Yeahh )
maybe i got miss understanding in that meaning..

i do love different in a good points..
i love different, i like to create something better and different..

Master Hsing Yun said.. everything that we read, that we hear, that we see, is not always right...
found it yourselves..the true Buddha's Dharma.so we not just always simply follow and believe what people told you about..
you need to listen to your heart...


but still...People need to know "How To take a big Change before they starting said just be yourselves.."
don't pretend that all people love you ( Be Yourselves ) when the truth they don't feel safe in nearing with you..
Open your Eyes and see people are feel not comfortable because of you !
WAKE UP ! and Change to make yourself happier and other people Happy..

Get Your Dream!

Bad to good, good to better..
Accept yourselves to dare to face problem and change stronger..and wiser..
" that is a truly Real Me "

yeah...that is me..
and We are not alone..

( Yeah i being myself )
but i welcome for people who got another opinion..
( Oh Yeah )


Stay True
Rong Lee

20 minutes to write this blog...

I do believe in changing..
that time, my friend he/she is sharing with me..
about their past bad memories..and i feel he/she bring that until today..
Yeah when i chat with him, i can sense he break his confidence a lot..

I found a lot of desperate person lately,
(I talk Like i never feel desperate ) 

some is also in having bad impact from her friends..until sometimes i found some darkness in her eyes and mind.. kinda scary ..


you know what..
when they tell me their story..
i always give a same answer.. i told them...

it really happened to me in my childhood story..
yeah first time some of them didn't believe at me, but until i told them some of my story, they starting believe it haha

sometimes i found myself  i kinda a bit arrogant  in people eyes,act like the most perfect person in the world..
talk like i know everything..but i really can't act stupid..

i think people should do a things , said a word that come out from his real heart and point of view..
that is the real human...
if we talk something opposite with our point of view, that means lying..


when they told everything and i shared everything, at that moment i realize a new power in myself...
i do believe in" Power Of Change "

I don't like a word " I am Me " ( Jadilah diri sendiri )

this word is good when we know how to change..

but i often met people with this statement, he/she fall in a lot of same problem, stubborn, desperate, boring, enemies, and Uncare..

We don;t need to afraid of future anymore, if we already make sure that we know how and dare to change..
There is never Late...if we want to change..

I do believe in that power..
i told my friend, i don't like to bring up my past story to tell people, because i don't have any sad story that i need to regret. ..

because it just bring sympathic, and make us weak..in people eyes


i realize that everyone in this world is having a same problem..
so it is not surprising anymore... if people can handle it, why we can't?


aaa
i feel good lately...

See ya..
i got to go to my new Office and Studio...

and following my schedule..

Good Day..



Stay Strong..
Rong Lee

yeah i got free 30 minutes to write some blog..
this recently i found quite interesting to write blog..
and quite boring  to play facebook..
yeah.. playing facebook, sometimes we can learn a lot of things about people mind and their life style..

From Shout out..i often read a lot of people get a same problem, some is talking others people 
" aaaa don't be such a shit !"                  " you suck! "           " he /she is cheating on Me" 
 
some is complaining " aaa i hate this life",     " Why Me?? "           " This life is suck",            
                                           " aaa i had been betrayed",

Some is fall in Love " I Love you forever Honey muachh muach.."

Some is joking.." Hahahahaha "

Some is desperate " I Love You and you don't Love Me "

Some is writing good word and inspiring " Life without trust is useless " , " Live your Life "

from that we can see..all people around the world having the same problem honestly, all the complain, all the motivation, all the problem , it always happens repeatably to everyone,
                    the problem they said is actually common exist in this life..
The real problem is they just keep comparing and complaining..

sometimes i keep saying " aaaa i know that "( sudah biasa )
and wish to say " WAKE UP " ( that's a real life ) when reading every complain and desperate from facebook
haha

writing blog it seems that i enter my own world..and life..
from here i can learn to describe every problem and walk trough it..

today morning i had been interview by some student about college assignment..
directly go home and having lunch for a while.. " eating Crab "
and then going to new office, and see anything to fix or not.. and it seems i can't help much..

aaa..it is nice to see small wish come true,

i know sometimes people always dream too high..
to have perfect office and studio...( that is me )
but only a fool who dare to complain ..( i am not )

Renting new Office and Studio, and looking it slowly maintained , it really feels real good..
i wonder what should we name this office and studio?

i got one i like " Dream Studio "
a Studio that always bring us to remember our Dream..and dare to walk forward,  never feels regret..
a Studio always bring hope and know to find a way..to stand up..
i wish everybody like it or maybe can give a better name..
hoho

i just feel that, everything slowly will come true from now on..
now i need to think to build a good business ..
slowly but sure.. ( Oh Yeahhh )

i believe it does possible, just to decide now..

aa nice day..
today i had been going to gym, to relax some muscle..
Good Health will bring good Life to get Dream ...

and tonight i need t go to Temple to have some meeting..

Good day Rong!



Stay Strong ..
Rong Lee

this month suddenly got a plenty of job to do,
that is nice..better than doing nothing haha
i am not complaining..yes i don't..

the feeling of challenging, it really feels good.. it a new things to do for me to monitoring the renovation of new house..
everything will be easy if people got money...buy everything as we want.. but it's difficult if we want something better without not enough cost,
we will see our idea disappear one by one..but can't let that washed out all your dream..
Yesterday i was hanging out a whole day at Sun Plaza, sitting and reading, discussing, and found a great idea..
just the problem " Dare to take Risk? "

Dream too high can easily broke all your Dream, that's why i think a real dream is having what we have and make it come true by your own, and that is the real we called " Get your Dream"

it challenging me.to think deeply,and find a way to make it perfect..

okay then, let's do it..
I need to do meeting now..



Stay Strong..
Rong Lee

haha today i just see people do singing..on youtube..
there are so many bunch of people who do singing very good..
in a moment something pump out from my mind..
when seeing people singing beautifully, in that moment i just like to be the best singer and actress in the world,
when i seeing people doing music, i just like to be the best musician and composer to create the best music in the world..
When being in one organization and i found people have such a very good idea and effort, i just feel like to be the best members in the world,
When seeing people doing great in leadership, i just like to be the best leadership in the world..
When i see people can build the best company in the world, they create money wisely, they controlling goodly, their got very strong idea, the way they solve problem and temptation,
at that moment i just feel i dream to be the best inspiring success Manager in the world..

When i see Michael Jackson and another successor who love his life, and save the world by helping each other, it makes me dream to have the meaningful life in the world..

When teacher inspire student a lot, at that time i just like to become the best teacher in the world,
When i do see people speaking attractively and inspiring, at that moment i just dream to be the best speaker in the world,

When i met a very good human being,wise at that moment i wish i can become a very good human being and understanding everything in this world..

When i see such a beautiful creation in movie, art, design, style, i just dream to be the most creative actress, Producer,Programmer, designer in the world..

When I am making coffee , and love to create coffee art, at that time i even dream to be the best barista and create the best coffee and Cafe in the world..

haha today i just found myself like this, like that, sometimes i think i got too much dream in my life,

i have no idea is that good or bad for me.. and i have no idea am i just a kind of dreamer in this world...

yeah i can't give any prove yet, because i am in a journey to make it come true,and see it come true..
Like people said.. Tomorrow is Mystery.

but surely i just feel great, just sometimes i caught myself can't make sure is this dream just a dream or really my real dream which drawn inside my heart and mind since i was born..
yeah.. sometimes i caught my self i doubt for it..but in a minute i realize that i love it..
and i truly like my life..
it's me..

That Dream..
Which Dream?
All The Dream..
that is mine..

Which will come true?

Will all of that dream come true?


Stay Strong and Have a Dream..



Love Me
Rong Lee

halo diary.. This felling is come to me again.. to decide something that i don't like to decide.. that is, firing some partner that i can said quite near with my life.. haiz haiz haiz.. i think this things also happened in other people life .. hired and fired, when hire people, everything seems so beautiful, smile on their face, but when fired people, you feel like so lonely.. but luckily i had prepared to stand stronger against this feeling.. i think everybody should accept the reality.. if only Buddha right here now.. i would like to ask him... What will he do if he is in my position now?
1 side i feel failed to keep a good mind and mental for them, but 1 side i think i can't push harder their mind to think as i think..because they got their live..
  
so far i think i can't do the protection anymore, and need to decide this hard decision for everybody good sake.. if only i can share my mind to them, i wish that there will be no hurt feeling which effected to future relationship, just wish everybody being real and accept to respect each other..and what they need to fulfill.. aaa..i am dying to think about this, i even don't know what kind of feeling is this, just feel empty.. is that means i had mastered this case ?or in indonesia means ( sudah biasa )? hmm maybe yes maybe no..

Chinese new year huh? wearing nice cloth and met with each other.. nice.. nice.. 2 sister has got married.. i realized this home now only have my brother and me.. more quiet than usual.. Chinese new year..sometimes seems boring honestly..because repeatably do a same things.. i like more during Sa Cap Me ( the day before Chinese New Year ) when everybody seems do preparation..seems life must go on.. i like the most when a whole family, doing cleaning house..

For Young People..Chinese New Year more means in showing new Dress..

For Married people ..Chinese New Year more means in collecting and giving Red Pocket..

For Old Grand Ma, Grand Pa..Chinese New Year more means in gathering..

aa Chinese New Year in Morning..
Valentine's Day at night.. Tonight..

Valentines more means in searching somewhere to eat haha we going all place, searching for a comfort place to eat.. and finally back to a same place at last year.. Cup & Cino.. having joke..ate Steak, having special order once time a year.. haha
Nice2..
today i feel something missing..but i don't know what.. seems so quiet..

hmm tomorrow is the day to continue chinese New Year!
Some people have difficulty in celebrating Chinese New Year..
Feel down because can't having a new cloth..
having a sad problem...
Wish you guys somethings..seems useless..when i can't really help.. but from bottom of my heart..i always feel grateful.. and i believe everybody do.. because life is hard if we keep comparing..
Good Luck!
This Life is Yours..

Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentines Day!
aa i Forgot my Chocolate!

aaa...it seems this year a big damn bad lucky attacking me unstoply..
but i tried to think that as a lesson..
"you are damn strong Rong Lee"

You heard my wish Buddha..to give me damn strong exam.. and it really come..
" I Damn Strong "
I wonder why analisa and other reporter like to put report wrongly.. i know that just a word.. but i does hurt me a lot...only with "YAD" and "no YAD" ..

aiya.. anything not clear should ask the customer first right?? but i had told it clearly..
this is just about religious and social importance organization.. so i still can try to calm and accept..if go to debate new problem will come..and affect people behind me..

you know what..
that's why i hate asking help from people.
something free not always good..

if not linked with religious organization.. i am not going to let it be easily.. aaa... this time we can't pointing each other..but only myself.. next time..
ask clearly.. warn clearly.. before let them do our things..

and the most important is..never give any message for second people to deliver order to third party...
if you can find that person directly and make clear..

because we just can control ourselves..

This New Year..
"i Damn Strong "


Stay Strong
Rong Lee

aaa....Festival activity had passed.. everybody seems so enjoyed their holiday now..
For me..generally success, but unsatisfied personally..why ?
a lot of changing plan..changing schedule..changing concern..
and it makes me felt i didn't do anything at the last..and i don't know where to go at the last.. because everything run so fast and smoothly by their own..one time i even said to myself.." aaa i feel useless " but suddenly i cut it " no no no no " one side i happy for all committees that were doing very good for their own responsible.. " i should be ready if anything goes wrong"
and i got one in Game Festival..and performance that everybody fighting for.. i try to concerned at there.. but i made mistake on that..
who knows my decision had made all mood down especially Light..
0.O it's damn make me more down honestly.. but " Stand Up is the word that appears"
" aaa i really doing nothing and just messed up everything " something that i proud is ..

we were making a record to invite a lot of participant come to Xiang Shan Shi at night.. especially on 31 December.. The Fireworks event totally will drawn a beautiful story in everyone heart.. at least my Vision accomplished..


Nice Experience..

Stay Strong
Rong Lee